Comments | _emmo: So, I'm tired of life again, and I dislike humanity because of myself this time...

_emmo

So, I'm tired of life again, and I dislike humanity because of myself this time...

Apr 04, 2005 06:22

Contemplated killing myself tonight, but in hindsight, I realize it never works, so I gave up on the though.

I decided I want a gun for Christmas or my birthday.

I imagine they are quick and painless. They also leave little room for error.

and

The thought of a bullet in my head puts a smile on my face lately.

In other news:I am pretty drunk, ( Read more... )

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anotherfacade April 4 2005, 06:23:47 UTC

*hug*
You not being in this world would be a great Tragedy james.
dont give up, even if this world sucks a whole lot- most of the time.

_emmo April 4 2005, 12:51:57 UTC

lately, i've been the reason that this world sucks for people though...

rachinator13 April 4 2005, 12:28:16 UTC

James I really miss you and last night even though I was sober I felt the same way. I mean I'd never actually kill myself but I sure as hell wanted to be gone & done with everything. Until I realized I'd never get to go to anymore shows with you.
<3

_emmo April 4 2005, 12:54:03 UTC

7 out of 10 times you see me. I want things to be done and over with. But I hide it.

pnkngrnd3 April 4 2005, 12:32:52 UTC

*hugs*

My friend told me that if she were to ever kill herself, she would want to drown that way she could change her mind. I thought that was a pretty good idea. 'Cause what if, in that split second before you died, you decided you wanted to live?

I don't even know you in real life, but I would miss you if you killed yourself.

_emmo April 4 2005, 12:53:09 UTC

The reason I said I wanted it that way, is so I didn't get the chance to change my mind.

I've tried a bunch of times, and some crazy fluke thing happens, which keeps my death from happening.

pnkngrnd3 April 4 2005, 13:25:52 UTC

If I were you, I'd take that as a sign. Then again, I like to look for signs in everything.

I decided one day that all of my LJ friends would become famous and I'd go around saying, "Yeah, I know him/her. S/he's my LJ friend!" and then laugh at all the strange faces people give me.

_emmo April 4 2005, 14:16:21 UTC

well, i'll work on that for you...

pnkrck_polrbear April 4 2005, 15:23:58 UTC

*hug* i wish that i could be there and hug you for real.. =(

__outofmymind April 5 2005, 04:25:24 UTC

James,

Honestly, even though I'm all the way down in Australia, I'd miss you, and your LJ entries, and just you in general. Don't go dying on me.