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[dawnie_summers_]

(continued from here)I love my sister dearly. I really do. I just have this one little issue...small one. I'm not supposed to be the one lecturing her about options and education and dreams. I'm 5 years younger than her, so it's supposed to be the other way around, am I right

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[mixed_berry]

"I just don't want to think about right now." I tell Dawn, sighing. "Why don't we go schedule plane tickets?" I offer.

I really don't want to be thinking about my lack of future anymore.

[dawnie_summers_]

"Fine, but only if you promise you'll at least start seriously doing some thinking about what you're going to do when things settle down when I'm gone." I stated firmly. Wasn't big on the concept of leaving her here if it was gonna be Slayer training 24/7 and then some. My sister needs a life of her own, too. That social life she fought so hard to maintain along with the Slaying in High School pretty much doesn't exist right now. I get that she's probably still mourning Spike, but that doesn't mean she can't make some friends, right?

[mixed_berry]

"Thanks, mom." I reply, half rolling my eyes. "Don't worry about me so much, okay? You have your social life."

[dawnie_summers_]

"Hey, if you can worry about me, I can worry about you." I stated, "I may be 5 years younger than you, but I'm not exactly all that far off from legally being an adult, right? Besides, someone should be looking out for you."

I couldn't help but point that out to her. I wasn't trying to act like mom...far from it, but someone had to look out for her, like I said. And mom wasn't here to do it. Dad didn't want to, and Giles was who knows where chasing after another slayer, so that left me. Much to Buffy's annoyance, I'm sure.

[dawnie_summers_]

Okay, now I wish I had a video camera. So that I could play back the last little while of our conversation. Because clearly she doesn't even notice the insanity.

"How is it she doesn't even notice?" I mutter slightly under my breath. Do I just out and out say it, or drop it? "It's nothing...I'm probably just making something out of nothing again...you're just being weird at times, that's all." I told her. No point in starting a fight. I'll just wait until we're in L.A., see how she acts there...good practice on that patience concept.

[mixed_berry]

"Weird?" I ask again, raising an eyebrow as a question towards her. And don't think I hadn't heard her muttering. Well, I hadn't heard exactly what she had said, but I didn't even have to bet that it was a remark about me.

Okay, I can see some of the point she's trying to make. I just couldn't tell her what happened between me and Xander. Not yet. Probably, not ever.

[dawnie_summers_]

I just couldn't help but look completely amazed at my sister for a moment. She doesn't even attempt to cover, deny or explain...she just questions the weird part of my comment...further adding to the weirdness exhibited. Right then, am I the only one thinking she may need, I don't know, therapy or something?

I'm getting close to annoyed here...she's not supposed to be a total space case. Thought that was kinda a requirement of being legally responsible for a minor, sibling or not.

"Buffy, come on..." I shook my head, laughing slightly. "You're not even attempting to defend yourself against the weirdness claim...which believe it or not? Weirder. But whatever...let's just finish up here and go have some fun, okay? I'll call Xander with all the info later."

[mixed_berry]

"No, Dawnie... really..." I started. Half of me wondered why I was the one pushing for information. I knew what she was talking about, really. Sure, I'd love to tell her. At least part of me wants to... the part that doesn't want to be stamped as clinically insane.

I shake my head slightly, "Never mind, you're right. We'll buy some nice online tickets and then go on a mini food/shopping spree."