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*rides as fast as she can away from Tirion*
*finally stops sometime the next morning in some small nondescript village in a random part of Aman*
*goes to the Inn, gets some food and a room, and sits down to write some letters home*
Turco,
Stop, don't tear this up just yet. I'm not asking for forgiveness, or acceptance, or a second chance, or to be friends, or any of that crap. I rather expect you to hate me and wouldn't really understand if you didn't. I screwed up. Royally. I know that. It's sort of stupid to say that I didn't mean for it to happen or I regret it or something when it's done and over. I will say that I'm sorry for ever getting involved with you. For my part I had a great time and I loved you very much. It was the best time in my lives. But I'd rather it never happened so you wouldn't have to deal with the mess I've caused. I'd take back every happy moment if it meant you wouldn't have to be unhappy.
I destroy things, keep them from working out right. I know that now. I'm not cut out for this relationship thing. None of them have ever worked right and I'm starting to get the idea that I'm the one making the mistakes. It would have ended someday so, maybe, it's best that it happened this way. Better now than waiting until later, when things were actually serious, to fuck up.
Anyway, I've wasted enough of your time. For what it's worth, I'm sorry. Please forget about me quickly and move on to better things. And be happy. Don't worry about me. I'm going somewhere where I can't hurt you, or Turin, or Gwindor, or my father, or Aredhel, or Nellas, or anyone else I care about.
Love Yours Cordially
Fin.
Turin,
Things are complicated and I'm leaving town forever a while. I just wanted to let you know so you didn't think I was avoiding you or something. I told Turco about what happened between us so... watch out. I don't really know if he'd try to do anything or not, but you can't be too careful. Just a heads up.
Don't blame yourself for any of this. I wouldn't want to take back what happened. Everything that happens as a consequence is my own fault and I'm completely willing to deal with it all on my own. I wish I could be more coherent and profound but right now I really need food and sleep. Don't worry about me. I'll take care of myself like most of the time always.
Fin.
Ada and Nellas and Aredhel,
I'm leaving for a while. I don't know where I'm going or when I'll be back. Or if I'm coming back. Take care of yourselves. I'll be fine.
Love,
Fin.
P.S. Thank you.
*finishes with the letters, sends them off, and collapses for a while in bed*
*finally stops sometime the next morning in some small nondescript village in a random part of Aman*
*goes to the Inn, gets some food and a room, and sits down to write some letters home*
Turco,
Stop, don't tear this up just yet. I'm not asking for forgiveness, or acceptance, or a second chance, or to be friends, or any of that crap. I rather expect you to hate me and wouldn't really understand if you didn't. I screwed up. Royally. I know that. It's sort of stupid to say that I didn't mean for it to happen or I regret it or something when it's done and over. I will say that I'm sorry for ever getting involved with you. For my part I had a great time and I loved you very much. It was the best time in my lives. But I'd rather it never happened so you wouldn't have to deal with the mess I've caused. I'd take back every happy moment if it meant you wouldn't have to be unhappy.
I destroy things, keep them from working out right. I know that now. I'm not cut out for this relationship thing. None of them have ever worked right and I'm starting to get the idea that I'm the one making the mistakes. It would have ended someday so, maybe, it's best that it happened this way. Better now than waiting until later, when things were actually serious, to fuck up.
Anyway, I've wasted enough of your time. For what it's worth, I'm sorry. Please forget about me quickly and move on to better things. And be happy. Don't worry about me. I'm going somewhere where I can't hurt you, or Turin, or Gwindor, or my father, or Aredhel, or Nellas, or anyone else I care about.
Love Yours Cordially
Fin.
Turin,
Things are complicated and I'm leaving town forever a while. I just wanted to let you know so you didn't think I was avoiding you or something. I told Turco about what happened between us so... watch out. I don't really know if he'd try to do anything or not, but you can't be too careful. Just a heads up.
Don't blame yourself for any of this. I wouldn't want to take back what happened. Everything that happens as a consequence is my own fault and I'm completely willing to deal with it all on my own. I wish I could be more coherent and profound but right now I really need food and sleep. Don't worry about me. I'll take care of myself like most of the time always.
Fin.
Ada and Nellas and Aredhel,
I'm leaving for a while. I don't know where I'm going or when I'll be back. Or if I'm coming back. Take care of yourselves. I'll be fine.
Love,
Fin.
P.S. Thank you.
*finishes with the letters, sends them off, and collapses for a while in bed*