a fragment

[_fool]

we met at a sleepy party in a friend's immaculate house only a few doors down the street from my own. she showed up late with the host's boyfriend, apologizing for being driven to the party. i jokingly apologized for walking and got a dirty look. but she was too tired to hold a grudge that night, and as she took a ride home from the last person

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[aprilstarchild]

I had a relationship end terribly almost a decade ago. We haven't spoken since a few months after the break-up. I still wonder what he thinks of me now, how he looks back on the whole thing.

Part of me hopes he sees it the same way I do: a complex mix of affection for the good parts of our relationships and sorrow that we stuck it out far longer than we should have. But he hated my guts by the end of it, and probably still does for all I know.

A lot of my exes, we're not close but we're friendly. He's the only gaping hole in my past. It still feels weird.

[_fool]

a thing i've learned is that sometimes other people don't make sense and you can't own their issues. it's just hard to apply that knowledge when you're still hurting...seems to me anyway