Since You're So Anxious for People To See How You Treat Me...

[_genevieve_]

Well, here you go - this was today - beginning to end - no edits, no nothing

Comments

[tigereyz]

I know you both hurt right now. And that certainly didn't look like a fun convo, but do yourselves a favor and keep this to yourselves, and out of LJ just like FTJ. You'll only regret airing dirty laundry down the road hun.
Breakups ARE hell, just different levels. I'm sorry things are so hard for you right now, and I know how it feels to have to completely cut ties in order to move on from someone. Do what you need to do to make yourself stronger.

<3

[_genevieve_]

sometimes, airing everything out can help a lot - but I know what you mean - thanks megz <3333

[tigereyz]

As long as it helps, so be it :-P <3333

[sideofcenter]

LMFAO

[_genevieve_]

I know your feeling on everything Joe - but thanks for trying to be so objective and honest <33333

[ifuckedher]

if i wasnt so tired i would of read all that but i am so ill just say...sneakybunny <3

[_genevieve_]

sneakymonkey <333333333333333

[lagwagonmonkey]

well i really dont appreciate a conversation being posted.....but it's your journal.

joe is right on the money here. this is a VERY unusual situation. and it is very, very hard. i have tried to be here for you as you chose to have me....but i certainly havent pushed it. sometimes i guess i wasnt here for you enough....but this isnt something i've ever gone through before. it is hard to find the right balance.

it really isnt easy feeling like i am the main cause for such a good person's heartache and pain. but i do feel that way and it kills me. and i'm sure i fight against that feeling daily, but when i am alone or when i read something you wrote saying how bad you feel....it makes me cry.

anyway, how you choose to have me or not have me in your life is your decision.

[_genevieve_]

When you're ready to really appologize, and honestly mean it, and are ready to work through what you are appologizing for, then let me know because I really don't want you to not be a part of my life - you never gave our relationship a real chance - if you care about me as much as you say you do, then you might want to go about our friendship differently - I deserve more than a partial attempt - I've always given you more than that, and I expect more than that in return - like I said, life may not be fair, but friendships should be

[lagwagonmonkey]

when you're ready to tell me how i HAVEN'T been your friend then let me know. making vague, ambiguous statements like that really isn't fair.

[_genevieve_]

do you honestly feel like you've been a friend to me greg? I think we define friendship differently - maybe that's part of our problem =/ who knows - I just know I'm sick of you getting mad at me every single day and telling me you're done with me and then acting like everything's ok the next day - cause it's not :(

[melly_21]

*slaps hands over my eyes* i love you both and I hope you guys get through this <3

[_genevieve_]

I love you too - no worries - whatever happens, happens ::shrugs:: everything happens for a reason, you know?