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[_genevieve_]

I'm so sad - one of my closest friends died this weekend - our mothers were best friends since before we were born - her and her mom were at the hospital the night I was born - we had been friends for over 25 years and I never called her after we got into a fight before I moved out here because I thought she should be the one to call me since she

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[marinalicious]

i love you, you know that. everything will be ok. just trust me. you have my number <3

[_genevieve_]

as soon as cingular stops being stupid and turns back on my phone, I can use your number to call you <333

[marinalicious]

do you have a home phone number? i can always call YOU. Until then, there is always IM :)

i fucking hate your cell phone company!

[_genevieve_]

nope, I dont have a home phone cause I didn't think I needed one seeing as I have a HUGE cell plan and have cable internet - and I have my old sprint phone and an emergency plan (like 15 anytime minutes or something like that for like $5 a month - lol) my phone's back on now - maybe I should look into getting a home phone and lowering my cell phone plan - who knows - but that's just more stuff for me to deal with - lol - anyways - we can talk after work now - my phone is working again

[lagwagonmonkey]

i'm sorry, gen :*(

sorry i couldnt make you feel better.

just know your friend wouldnt blame you.....of that i have no doubt.
<333

[_genevieve_]

I should have called her - you know how I am about not being upset with people cause it could be the last time you ever talk - sometimes I can just be so stubborn :( I fucking hate it - I was so mad at her before I left, I didn't even say goodbye :*( I'm a horrible friend - I am just completely disgusted with myself right now - she deserved so much better :*(

[lagwagonmonkey]

it happens, gen. trust me. it isnt your fault. she would tell you the same thing. i'm sorry that you lost your friend and also have this other thing weighing you down regarding it. it must be hard. hang in there. <3

[_genevieve_]

but I am at fault =/ and just like everything else in my life, there's absolutely nothing I can do to fix it now - and it's totally my fault - I'm so stupid and stubborn sometimes and I fuck things up beyond belief - I can't believe I let things go almost a year without picking up the phone - how selfish of me to get so wrapped up in my own bs and just forget about people who have meant the world to me forever as far as I know - I haven't called meghan and alan since the end of june either - I've just been to wrapped up in whatever it is I'm going through right now - I rarely talk to amber - we text msg each other every now and then but I haven't seen her since the summer before last :*( fuck, it's been way over a year and almost a year since I've hung out with my two best friends in the whole world - I haven't seen my family since april and even then, it wasn't for very long - and I won't get to see them until christmas either - everytime I moved away it's never ever been like this before :*(

[tibby1]

Im sorry for your loss hun
<33

[_genevieve_]

I know lucy - thank you <3333333333333

[tibby1]

trust me she knew you still loved her, and like you still loved her, she still loved you
thats a long friendship no one forgets anyone with a friendship like that honey
<33

[_genevieve_]

I hate thinking about our last conversation :( I'm such a bitch - the people who know me in and out know how I can be when I've been hurt by love and get into a fight with them - especially when it's with someone who's even more stubborn than I am - trust me - it's not pretty :(

ask greg - he can tell you - I can be horrible =/

[wickedydork]

*lends you my Phone and my shoulder* I know how y ou feel. But im sure she knew you loved her. Im sorry babe <333

[_genevieve_]

cingular finally turned my phone back on - the mail is just running slow out here I guess cause of the fires - thank you though - you're a sweetie - and the shoulder is appreciated anytime <3333333333

[sweetkristina]

Damn. That sucks about your friend. I know things like that can be hard, but you weren't necessarily wrong for wanting her to call first. But someone definitely should have done something before now. Sorry to hear about that.

I hope you get to move home soon. I know how hard it is to be away from your family and the place you really consider home.

[_genevieve_]

sorry it's been so long since we talked kris - I know I sorta dropped off the face of the planet and I totally suck for that =/ I'm emailing you my new phone number out here in socali - i still have yours if they're still right, I can give you a call sometime and we can catch up

sorry for being such a shitty friend for like this past year =/ I'm totally disgusted with myself and how selfish I've been and how badly I've treated the people who haven't been physically around me :(

[sweetkristina]

Oh there is no reason to feel bad. You have made a lot of big changes in your life, moving to Cali being a huge one. I can understand not being able to keep in contact with every person. I am guilty of the same thing since I moved to Missouri 2 years ago. No worries.

Ummm.. I'm thinking my numbers should still be the same. I have been on cold medicine for the last week and I'm trying to think and I don't recall changing it at all. So it should be the same. But the email address has changed. My email now is chitownkristina@aol.com.

[_genevieve_]

I'm emailing you my new number and address now <333