I really don't who you are but I was googling something and wound up here. All I can say is damn girl if you didn't have short hair, you were me in highschool. Reading this if i knew you I would have swore you were talking about me. I just had to write something. Keep your chin up no matter what. Beauty is not an outside thing. It comes from the inside and works it's way out. That is true beauty and you from just reading, have just that. So next time you look at yourself in the mirror stand there with a shit eating grin on your face and you say to yourself I'M BEATIFUL AND I KNOW IT. Say it outloud if you have to. How ever you do it just say it. Because if you believe that, others will as well and you will start to feel fantasic. Believe me I've been in your exact spot all the way down in this entry to a boyfriend. Take care and good luck to you!
I was actually googling looking for an old friend of mine. She writes poetry and just for giggles I was searching around hoping to find a site where I could read some and I must have hit a wrong button or something of that extent. I always thought I was computer savey or my work computer is just an evil bastard trying to destroy me...lol. But at any rate I wound up here and I just had to throw in a word of encouragement to you. About needing to know who I am. You sure can why the hell not I say. People call me "G". Long running nick name don't really answer much to anything else anymore...lol. I found this a tad werid as well I wound up here. I've heard of these thingys, matter of fact I know a handful of people who use these things now. Not my fortay but hey it's nice to have someplace to write stuff :).I'm glad I left this up when I left work because I gurantee I'd never beable to find this again!...lol.
Erm, this entry is a few days away from the present but I've been away from the computer mostly for the last few days. So it evens out.
To be honest, I think I'd prefer you at 115 to 105 or anything less than 100. I'm pretty disturbed by most women's desire to be more skinny. Most women I see who want to be skinnier, I look at them and think they'd look better if they put on a few pounds. I know I'm in the minority, but I still find it disheartening that so many women are intent on being skinny. I'd rather they err on the side of chubby than be too thin. And "chubby" to me, is probably most men's "fat" or at least "heavy". What I call perfect I'd bet a hundred bucks most men and maybe even women call "chubby". Crazy is what I call them all.
Anyway, I'm not sure if this will make you feel better or worse or be completely unaffecting, but it is my honest opinion about the issue. And I wish more people felt the same way I did about it.
this entry was a declaration of me being better to myself... no more being super-critical to a sick degree...
i'm not so bad... i've learned to admit that to myself...
as for your tastes... more power to you... i know plenty of women who aren't considered "skinny" who are beautiful... some of the most beautiful people i know.
I highly endorse not being self-critical. I used to be and suddenly I stopped. I have no idea where or why or when or if I sound like I'm bragging(I don't mean to). But seriously, life's too short to sit through Spanglish and it's too short to worry all the time about how you look. Two things that are very vaguely connected, mostly only because they are both a waste of time.
You really don't need to lose any weight. I know that you are above all things a perfectionist, but you need to not look at yourself through such a fine scope. If you are ever in need of a confidence boost, you can always go to a weight watchers meeting, and laugh in horror as the chubsies of the tri state launch pastries at you. The confectioners onslaught of course an obvious result of your anouncement in valley girl tongue... Um yah, I'm like Nami, and I'd like to lose like 20lbs.
About 99.9% of the human race has it far worse then you... I do not look at you through rose colored glasses either. Although, I do agree... High School Nami (with her bleach blonde hair, and piercings) would have beaten up last week Nami.
OPEN YOUR EYES WOMAN! You are beautiful as you are...
thank you. really... for some reason things have been extra hard lately... everything is tiring... but i'm going to be leaving this hellhole of a job soon... and once that happens, things will get better.
feeling lousy overall just sends me into fits of self-analyzation...
the good thing... this entry is where i stop being stupid about myself...
as for you... i'm glad you're trying to find yourself... and be truthful... it's really important. [as for cursing me off in a public forum...well, it's funny in retrospect...it had to be done.]
i hope your travels go well... when are you scheduled to take off?
you're going to love japan... well, i'm sure you'll have a good time wherever you go...
mr. gumo, yes? [i'm not sure if that was the correct spelling...] but, yes, i do remember. japan's fantastic. be sure to do some temple hopping at least a few of the days you're there...and take lots of pictures
( ... )
luckily, since i wrote this particular entry, i've grown quite a bit... on every level.
i still get down... and depressed, but i try to look at the big picture... i say to myself, why waste my time being miserable? i could be using that time to become even more fabulous than i already am!
we're all amazing... it just depends on whether you let other people see it or not. or let yourself see it, for that matter.
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I really don't who you are but I was googling something and wound up here. All I can say is damn girl if you didn't have short hair, you were me in highschool. Reading this if i knew you I would have swore you were talking about me. I just had to write something. Keep your chin up no matter what. Beauty is not an outside thing. It comes from the inside and works it's way out. That is true beauty and you from just reading, have just that. So next time you look at yourself in the mirror stand there with a shit eating grin on your face and you say to yourself I'M BEATIFUL AND I KNOW IT. Say it outloud if you have to. How ever you do it just say it. Because if you believe that, others will as well and you will start to feel fantasic. Believe me I've been in your exact spot all the way down in this entry to a boyfriend. Take care and good luck to you!
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thank you so much...
that was amazing.
what were you googling for?
my god, who are you?!
i feel like i need to know you!
thanks again!
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Your New Found Person. :)
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To be honest, I think I'd prefer you at 115 to 105 or anything less than 100. I'm pretty disturbed by most women's desire to be more skinny. Most women I see who want to be skinnier, I look at them and think they'd look better if they put on a few pounds.
I know I'm in the minority, but I still find it disheartening that so many women are intent on being skinny. I'd rather they err on the side of chubby than be too thin. And "chubby" to me, is probably most men's "fat" or at least "heavy". What I call perfect I'd bet a hundred bucks most men and maybe even women call "chubby".
Crazy is what I call them all.
Anyway, I'm not sure if this will make you feel better or worse or be completely unaffecting, but it is my honest opinion about the issue. And I wish more people felt the same way I did about it.
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this entry was a declaration of me being better to myself...
no more being super-critical to a sick degree...
i'm not so bad...
i've learned to admit that to myself...
as for your tastes...
more power to you...
i know plenty of women who aren't considered "skinny" who are beautiful...
some of the most beautiful people i know.
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I used to be and suddenly I stopped. I have no idea where or why or when or if I sound like I'm bragging(I don't mean to).
But seriously, life's too short to sit through Spanglish and it's too short to worry all the time about how you look. Two things that are very vaguely connected, mostly only because they are both a waste of time.
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You really don't need to lose any weight. I know that you are above all things a perfectionist, but you need to not look at yourself through such a fine scope. If you are ever in need of a confidence boost, you can always go to a weight watchers meeting, and laugh in horror as the chubsies of the tri state launch pastries at you. The confectioners onslaught of course an obvious result of your anouncement in valley girl tongue... Um yah, I'm like Nami, and I'd like to lose like 20lbs.
About 99.9% of the human race has it far worse then you... I do not look at you through rose colored glasses either. Although, I do agree... High School Nami (with her bleach blonde hair, and piercings) would have beaten up last week Nami.
OPEN YOUR EYES WOMAN! You are beautiful as you are...
Thats it, I'm done.
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really...
for some reason things have been extra hard lately...
everything is tiring...
but i'm going to be leaving this hellhole of a job soon...
and once that happens, things will get better.
feeling lousy overall just sends me into fits of self-analyzation...
the good thing...
this entry is where i stop being stupid about myself...
as for you...
i'm glad you're trying to find yourself...
and be truthful...
it's really important.
[as for cursing me off in a public forum...well, it's funny in retrospect...it had to be done.]
i hope your travels go well...
when are you scheduled to take off?
you're going to love japan...
well, i'm sure you'll have a good time wherever you go...
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[i'm not sure if that was the correct spelling...]
but, yes, i do remember.
japan's fantastic.
be sure to do some temple hopping at least a few of the days you're there...and take lots of pictures ( ... )
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Only I'm not sure I want that lively girl girl back. I don't know why.
You know I think you're amzing, you get told a lot. Doesn't really make a difference huh?
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on every level.
i still get down...
and depressed, but i try to look at the big picture...
i say to myself, why waste my time being miserable?
i could be using that time to become even more fabulous than i already am!
we're all amazing...
it just depends on whether you let other people see it or not.
or let yourself see it, for that matter.
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