Updates. It has been a while.

[_hambone]

I'm becoming a severe hypochondriac. It's debilitating. I spend hours online looking up symptoms to maladies that are statistically impossible for me to get. I guess I'm just afraid of the "lifestyle," I lead; it's risks and issues. And It's being blown at me like hurricane force winds. In the past couple of months, 3 of my friends have found

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[adrion88]

shiitt man... Everyday I check my penis for sores, lesions, or anything in general that may resemble an std. I still google venerial diseases to pass the time and somehow it comforts me. And whenever im done having sex, even though me and the person im with have been tested together for just about everything, I always pee and scrub my penis with first cold water to debilitate any viruses or bacteria, then hot water to completely kill it (if theres anything there in the first place). Im afraid to give a blow job because the idea of hiv infested precum and cum scares me, and I know theres 1 in 10,000 chance that i can become infected by that practice. The other day I got a pimple on the base of my dick and I cried and thougt it was herpes. I've been tested for genital herpes three fucking times, and yet I still think the test are flukes because im an exception to rule. I think theyre all false negatives. I feel like im sick, and literally waiting on these tests to prove likewise. Its sad, but people whom I've talked to about my

[adrion88]

Ohh and i forgot to mention, I happen to live in area with the highest rate of newly reported hiv infections in the nation.