I had this totally angry and sad sermon typed for my ElJay ( Read more... )

This week was really stressful and stupid and bad but at the same time, it halped me learn a lot about my pressure points and I just altogether learned a lot about myself ( Read more... )

"I don't know whether I'm the boxer or the bag."

I need to talk to you. About me. About us.
I don't know. Maybe you wouldn't care if I didn't say "goodbye."

It was my birthday yesterday. I was really happy and really sad at the same time. I always am. I kept thinking about how some people say I make them really sad and how they always want to help me but they feel like they'll hurt me. I feel too delicate. I feel like the first conversation after you break up with your boyfriend. I feel like the shiny ( Read more... )

It's times like these when I have good music and some not so good timesthat I wish someone was there to talk to. I know I have five people I can definately talk to, but I mean a boy.
This is frustrating.

PS_something weird with James Black today? Yeah...

I think about everything way WAY too much ( Read more... )

The only thing that hurts worse than not being able to help is needing help yourself and knowing someone else needs help you can't give.
I need another OD on Benadryl, hot chocolate, a good book, and someone to listen when I read.

So I hate finally accepting something and you start to get over it and all the sudden POW! It's like it's been the way before the whole time. I'm really stuck in the one place and I know where I want to go, but there are so many roads I can take, and so many people I could bring. But sometimes, I have to wonder if they would really go trekking with ( Read more... )

EMO ENTRY LOLLERSKATES. BUT REALLY ( Read more... )

It's really hard for me to open up to people. No matter how much I try, I can never explain some things or really say how I feel. I try really hard to just say it, but it's like I have it programmed to never say anything. I feel like no one believes me when I say some things, so I just learned to not say anything at all. I need to stop talking to ( Read more... )