All good things must come to an end

[_hemogoblin_]

Or so I hear.

It seems I'm in a tight spot. On the edge of breaking up with the boys.

I feel like my stomach is tied in a knot around my heart.

I gave my key back, and now we're negotiating and hoping we can get past it. I don't know that we can. I haven't been this miserable in a long time.

I don't want to be at work today.

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[pretty492]

If I wasn't hundreds and hundreds of miles away I would give you the biggest, most comforting hug evar!

[_hemogoblin_]

Thanks, hun. I'd probably break down. It's not fair that they have eachother to cry on or get past things with. THey suggested maybe we might see eachother less, but I can't do that and keep going. Jealousy is a mean bitch.

[gothy_kitten]

*****HUGSSSSSS***** I'm so sorry to hear that, sweetie. I know that knot all too well. :( Not the same situation, but the whole hurting from love torn apart. I think that's why I have tried to brainwash myself that I don't need anyone, even though that is a total lie. :(

[_hemogoblin_]

I tried that, before I met them. Three and a half years single is what it got me, and incredibly low self-image in a relationship. I spent a ot of time asking myself, "Why do they even bother dating me?"

The hardest part about this is that I've come to the point where I'm asking myself, "Why do I bother dating them?" It isn't that I don't love them, because I do, but I'm getting treated like crap and I deserve better than that. Telling myself that doesn't really make it hurt any less, though. :-/