having a heart sucks
so I'm as vulnerable as they come right now. it scares me to think I let myself get this into someone this quick. it scares me to think I let myself open up so much enough that at any moment I could just have my heart directly ripped out of my chest. I can't tell you how you much I hope this works out because its not able to be told. I don't let myself develop feelings for anyone this quick. but in the course of a few days I have realized that I may have met the girl that I want/could be with for years upon years to come. I'm in love which scares me even more because that whole vulnerability issue. theres alot of skeletons in both our closets and its gonna take a little work to make it so those skeletons stay burried. theres 5 hours between us, which seems like nothing right now, but will also take alot of work to make it last. all I know is this is as real as it gets. this is the risk I've needed to take all my life but never found the person worth taking that risk for. well here it is. this is me wearing my heart on my sleeve. this is me spilling my guts.
