hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt, etc.
last night andy told me the truth, finally. well i actually had to acuse him of it before he told me. yes HOW FUCKING STUPID DOES HE THINK I FUCKING AM! am so hurt right now..
yes andy was my boyfriend. we were in a pretty open relationship, only kissing allowed though, NOTHING MORE. and i thought it was all going ok. he kept telling me he loved me to bits and he cared about me. LIES
i saw him on saturday and he was like he always is, then i got a call pure late on saturday night with him pure pilled up n basically crying and apologising for 'pulling' this chick. i didnt really mind about that for obvious reasons.. but yeah i thought it was pretty strange he was so gutted about just pulling someone but i left it.
then last night i was on the phone to him, acting as if nothing happened but he kept mentioning it, strange again. so well i knew.. so i asked.. he said no, again. so i told him to stop lying and well he told me the truth. i didnt know what to say even though i was expecting it so in the end i just hung up..
hurt hurt hurt hurt
yes im hurt
but im still with him at the moment.. but only because we haven't talked. i dont know what to do..
My Mirror No Longer
Choke on your forked tongue as you lie to me again
Say it's too early to show how we feel
just shove me away / but what can be said
to someone who can't hear
or comprehend your actions
I've lost faith in what I've been told / it's all a lie
I show true feelings always feeling the pain
Smash me to the ground a thousand times as before
But I can't rationalize anymore / carry me away
on concrete pillows incinerate me once more
Love means nothing to you anymore
blood stains on the wall with disfigured forms / end me
yes andy was my boyfriend. we were in a pretty open relationship, only kissing allowed though, NOTHING MORE. and i thought it was all going ok. he kept telling me he loved me to bits and he cared about me. LIES
i saw him on saturday and he was like he always is, then i got a call pure late on saturday night with him pure pilled up n basically crying and apologising for 'pulling' this chick. i didnt really mind about that for obvious reasons.. but yeah i thought it was pretty strange he was so gutted about just pulling someone but i left it.
then last night i was on the phone to him, acting as if nothing happened but he kept mentioning it, strange again. so well i knew.. so i asked.. he said no, again. so i told him to stop lying and well he told me the truth. i didnt know what to say even though i was expecting it so in the end i just hung up..
hurt hurt hurt hurt
yes im hurt
but im still with him at the moment.. but only because we haven't talked. i dont know what to do..
My Mirror No Longer
Choke on your forked tongue as you lie to me again
Say it's too early to show how we feel
just shove me away / but what can be said
to someone who can't hear
or comprehend your actions
I've lost faith in what I've been told / it's all a lie
I show true feelings always feeling the pain
Smash me to the ground a thousand times as before
But I can't rationalize anymore / carry me away
on concrete pillows incinerate me once more
Love means nothing to you anymore
blood stains on the wall with disfigured forms / end me