he reminded me about a void i forgot about. until today, i have had every ounce of intimacy and affection stashed away, sealed tightly in a mason jar ( Read more... )

things are looking up and i'm picking up the pace.
i wasn't myself tonight, but i couldn't be happier. <3

hey! my birthday!
february thirdddddddd!

oh gosh.. i think i'm going to 80s prom dateless.
wooooo!!

i want a man of science ( Read more... )

hahahahahahaha
so the hearsay is that there was a giamongonosus fight at the show saturday.
wow.
i wish i wasn't working, so could've gone to it, because fighting is soooooo cool. especially when it hardcore kids fighting because that means that the are really XtuffX. man, i wish i was one of those innocent bystanders getting punched in the face. ( Read more... )

6:
guess who was on the same cruise ship that my family was on this past week?
guess who is on the disney channel show, even stevens, and is my fav.??
guess who hung out with myyyy little brother, dillon the whole time???
guesssssss!!!!

BEANS!!!!
oh oh ohhhhhhhhh!!!

7:
oh!
eighties prom!!!!
feb. 15th!!!
go!!

8:
does 18 hurt?
thirteen days

Bite the Bullet-in >>>

1:
the morale of becoming engaged has suddenly grew vague. being a fiancee, and getting money for school vs. whoring myself.
i'm a skeptic of my own situation.

2:work work work ( Read more... )

did i forget to mention that, contrary to my previous post, there is one thing that does get my riled up?
.. yes i did.

that 70s show

obstruct your view.
abstract your words.
destruct your life.
distract.. (pause and sigh)
Death.

i've been tinkering away at myself, getting ready for a reinvention.
and after these past monthes, i've frankenstein-ed myself and become stronger.
i have a real control of myself.

but its at a desperate point..
i can't feel.i'm tied to a chair by my ( Read more... )

replies to the understatement of the century ( Read more... )

maybe i'll talk in third person
and i'll realize how ridiculous i really am
because this confidence is a decoy.

i'm so flimsy.