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[_holdup]

i lost my heart somewhere between the window and my bedroom floor. and it was there i lay for almost an hour, bleeding into the carpet and letting my tears rush constantly down my cheeks

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[lexie_b]

i hate may 16th and 17th. everything happened at once. it feels like a lifetime since that day at school, doesn't it? i didn't know her well enough to be called a friend, but i miss her like crazy too.

[_holdup]

i remember when you told me.
i remember telling you 'no..no..thats a lie'
because it was not right. it shouldn't have happened. she was supposed to get better.
lexie. things like this shouldnt happen to good people. i never want to feel like kind of shocking hurt again.

[lexie_b]

i remember hating myself that i had to tell everyone. and i remembered it being cold. very very cold. i remember hearing kian telling the teachers she was coming back. getting work for her to do in the hospital. i remember she was going to come into my english class, and i was pleased because i didn't get to really know her in year seven. i remember wanting to go to her funeral. but i didn't :( if you need to talk, call me

[_holdup]

you made me choke up when i read that. i remember everything...
i remember in yr 6 when she went out with max and they subsequently broke up they were arguing about who broke up with who. they were both too proud to admit they were wrong.
it was adorable.
and things like that..can make me smile again.

[heroin_junkie]

<3

[_holdup]

ohh.

[solo_snatch]

wow you write amazing words and i'm sorry to hear about your friend. it was 4 years my best friend has been dead a few days ago. if you ever need anyone to talk to i will listen.
<3

[_holdup]

thankyou.
for both liking the way i word my emotions, and also saying you'd be there to listen. it means a lot.
..i know you'll understand me then, when i say, the pain doesnt go away.
<3

[solo_snatch]

you're very welcome.
the pain never seems to drain and it's so amazing how a friend could leave such a big impact on someone.
<3

[_ribbonsandlace]

I feel sad after reading that. :(

deep regards to your friend. sorry I can't relate. <3

[_holdup]

i don't mean to make anyone sad. i just..i want people to know. and to appreciate what they have. because itll all be over in a blink of an eye.
<3

[_ribbonsandlace]

awww. that was beautiful. <3

[_holdup]

thankyou.
but just..understand what i mean when i say that. although i know i bitch and i get depressed and hate the world and everything. deep down. its not the way to go.
live each day like its your last for it way well could be.
and that is not meant in any sort of depression sense.

[rapidrem]

i can't even imagine.
you're a strong one, leila.
indeed.

[_holdup]

id try not to imagine if i were you.
its not even healthy for the strong.
and im not really, but ive learnt to deal with certain things on some levels.
this isnt one..*sigh*
<333