there are only like three times when i don't feel lonely while i'm up here at school. it feels like this emotion or whatever has found its way into every nook and cranny that was my life. i'm way less confident than i used to be and i'm not really sure why. maybe its cause i feel like i confide in people and they don't confide in me. and i can't ( Read more... )

i get this funny feeling inside my chest.stomach.abdomen area when i think about you and how much i love you. i think you are amazing and i am thankful for you.

its 2.22.

i hope you know how much you mean to me.

This Just In: i think i'm afraid of being forgotten. and thats why i am flipping out. it goes back to what i said in my last post. i used to put a lot of effort into my friendships. making sure i was doing nice things for people. but its tiring..all that giving without reciprocation that is on the same level. i feel underappreciated a lot of the ( Read more... )

so basically, i feel like crap. im overly-(angry, sensitive, and aggressive) right now and i don't like it. the worst part is that with this emotional turmoil, i also have physical symptoms. i get this weird feeling in my chest, almost like nausea, but it just makes me angrier. the feeling doesn't go away with talking, and that makes me more upset ( Read more... )

the harder you try to embrace it ( Read more... )

today's a good day. its been a great year.

Now...i can understand where all you single people out there are coming from about this shitty holiday where whatever shitty happens. i wasn't about valentine's day when i was sinlge, and i'm not really into now, even with a girlfriend, but i do have a couple questions for those who feel this holiday is so condscending and all about showing single ( Read more... )

an addition to that previous post:
that is just the start to the mural that my back will eventually depict..i expect great things.

from this:

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i don't really use this anymore...i mean not for writing at least (not because i don't have anything to say, its cause i never feel inspired to write up here.), i do look at peoples entries to ttry and stay afloat since i'm bad at calling. but i think about a lot of people i don't call (cause i'm a fail)...really and sincerely. i miss people..life' ( Read more... )