what an off week its been. since last thursday ive had the flu. ive battled it with nyquil. it finally kicked my ass last night. i could barely move. kristy called to see how i was doing. and that was really rad of her. i didnt even know she had my number......i did see the end of joe millionaire. i will watch the real end next week. i had alot to ( Read more... )

nothing's changed.....so has everything ( Read more... )

if i wanted motivation to make an effort, there are lots of places i could look. i dont really now if i was tested today, but if i was, i hope to everything you believe in i failed. and if you ever try to test my friendship again...ill hand you back a test with one blank filled in. it will say fuck you ( Read more... )

so....after my last post, i went to check the mail. there was a dog walking down the street. it had a radio tied to its back. something like you would see in a breakdance movie. it was playing the jimmy eat world cd "clarity". i ran and got my dads camera and filmed the dog for seven minutes. then i lost it in the fog. im uploading onto the ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder if people talk about me when im not there. it fuels fears of inadequacy. i see my shortcomings painted out on a canvas that stretches miles wide ( Read more... )

because i live in a house filled w/ people like myself, our christmas shit is still up. it was replusive while it was christmas, and now its worse. so, i toook it all down. i feel accomplished. i made breakfast for five, and my parents got none. my brother did, he rubbed it in. movie nite was a success, and people even showed up. i painted, wrote, ( Read more... )

ive decided that today im having my movie day. in this order i will watch a beautiful mind, cant hardly wait, rushmore, better off dead, high fidelity, batman, live and let die, hedwig and the angry inch, forrest gump, clue, the royal tenenbaums, casablanca, and buns of steel. im starting this now.

i took a test. i told me these people are like me........most of them are dead...some of them where never alive in the first place: Mother Teresa, Barbara Bush, Eleanor Roosevelt, Leo Buscaglia, Monica Lewinsky, Bill Cosby, Barry Manilow, Lionel Ritchie, Kenny G., Luciano Pavarotti, Lillian Carter, Sammy Davis, Jr., Martin Sheen, Robert Fulghum, ( Read more... )

spine numbing chills. blinding headaches. waves. instant coffee, raw. vomitting.

and its still the best thing in awhile.

i cant help but feel fake.

Ex Amino.

au DIO nipples 4: wb ( Read more... )