after a day of nervous stress twitches and scaring the bejezus out of myself i am ok ( Read more... )

this means i want one.....wanna get it for me?


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last night without a care in the world i drank a pitcher of my favorite beer at my favorite bar, the poet and the patriot. this would be unknowingly my last beer there for a while. because after closing something caught fire. the pub is closed until further notice due to fire damage. such a sad day

i forgot about how much i hate some social situations.
work today was hell. to many people on both sides.
maybe im just out of touch or somethin.
maybe i just need a good cuddle
maybe i just need to get good and kissed
maybe i just need to get the fuck out of santa cruz once and for all
maybe all of these are true.
(i think they are)

home sweet home.....and im bored of it already.
once i can verbalize what happened i will try. but for now, poooo i wanna go back and have fun

i want a nice sunny day. we'll pack a picnic and ride till we find a place. sit around enjoy the day, breath easy and just be happy to be with each other. bikes, good food, and good company ( Read more... )

where are all the good men dead,
in the heart or in the head?

there is something that is a bit of a let down knowing that someone so close to you at one point is so childish to have you still blocked on aim for the past 3 months.

edit: its also nice to know that im so easily forgotten, replaced, and lied to

i wish there was a way to co-exist comfortably with you.

recap for is it worth it.
nothing is worth feeling this useless, ugly, and well just worthless.
i cant stand going from having a great time to a horrible one at the drop of a hat anymore.