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[APPLICATION]
First, who promoted to you, or how did you find _insideandout? I was searching for communites that are not just interested in looks but most importantly personality.
__ Introduction
1? Name? Jessica Rose Fontanini but I prefer Jess/ Mookie or whatever you come up with.
2? Gender Female
3? Age? 20 [Pisces 3/11]
4? Grade in school/occupation? not in school, no job but looking. For now I stay at home & cook
5? Ethnicity? caucasian [italian/irish/french/austrian]
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** ? Tell us more about yourself (sexuality, relationship status, hair color, eye color, favorite color, what kind of music you like to listen to, or whatever you'd like. (PLEASE make it worth reading, because this application isn't that long.)
I live in Yonkers, NY with my boyfriend & Mom and it isn't at all interesting here.
I want to move to Arizona & Hawaii & California, traveling is something I want to do but don't have the money for.
I am straight obviously, I have been with my boyfriend Elias since November 29, 2000 which means we were both only 15 years old. I love him very much, he is my best friend & the only person I trust.
This coming November is going to be 5 years and we just started living together last September and I have no ring, lol.
Honestly I don't believe to much in marriage, a piece of paper can't make me love him more then I already do.
I am about 5'4/ 160lbs and uncomfortable with how I look [my body].
I have Dark-Medium golden magogany brown hair [that is what is says on the box] but my natural color is dark brown with red & gold.
My eyes are interesting, I think the best part about me. They are dark hazel and when I cry they turn greenish brown & when I am happy they are a rich chocolate brown and they also change in the sun and with whatever makeup I am wearing at the time.
I also have my nose pierced and I used to have my eyebrow but it got infected and I have a scar which makes me mad because I really like my eyebrows.
my pleasures:
hibiscus flowers, plumeria flowers, belly dancing, the ocean, music, movies, zodiac signs, hawaiian words, earthy clothes, warm water, sea foam green, sand, hot weather, traveling, cooking
I like reading, i am trying to get back into it & I like figure out what art means to me & writing down feelings and anything else that is on my mind.
Creativity is an important part of my life.
I am a big fan of music, I feel it is necessary.
I used to only be into punk & emo but now I am opening up, I like some rap like eminem because he is creative and tells it like it is.
I like R&B because I love to dance, I like Shakira because in her music there is so much feeling & I love belly dancing to it.
Also love Kelly Clarkson's voice & her music. I also just recently got into Jazz and I'm not so much into country but who knows.
I dress like a boy, not into skirts/ dressing up/ nail polish but I do own this lovely hawaiian type dress. I enjoy comfortable clothing
I wear makeup at times but I don't over do it. I am no slave to fashion & I love unique/ creative/ & vintage clothes but I sadly own none.[need money!! lol]
I am also not fake, I tell you like it is and I don't compromise what I believe in.
I am the type of person who thinks & psychologically profiles everything.
I am open-minded/ opinionated/ non-political/ free spirited/ loving/ caring/ emotional/ day dreamer
I am an educater/ psychologist and actress at heart.
I am also a person that has the genetic disorder Cystic Fibrosis or also known as CF.
For those that have never heard of it, it is something you are born with but symptoms don't show up right away, I was 2 when they did.
It isn't something I can give to you, it is genetic and my mom and dad carried the gene for it, both parents have to.
Also there is a big chance that I do not carry the gene because I have the disorder.
CF affects your pancreas so I need to take enzymes before everything I eat, they replace the enzymes my pancreas don't release.
It also affects your lungs, there is constant mucus that is in my lungs and also in my reproductive system this is why it is hard for CF patients to get pregnant & for the men to get a woman pregnant but there is a way around that.
For my lungs I take medication that is in a nebulizer and I am one of the lucky ones.
CF patients also can eat a lot of food but gain barely any weight and the immune system isn't how it should be so it is easier to get sick especially in the winter.
So that is me in a nutshell. :)
__ Show us what's on the inside (personality questions, & such).
1? Describe yourself in THREE words. compassionate / intuitive / weak-willed
2? What have you learned most out of life, and how did you learn it? EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
it was actually a number of things, my father died 6 days before my 9th birthday, I became pregnant at 17 & had a miscarriage, went through crap with ex-boyfriends from being used to getting smacked across the face and now my grandma ,the only one that called me everyday just to tell me she loves me, that is now in a coma
If my father didn't die I would have never met Elias because I would be in Conneticut right now.
If I didn't have a miscarriage I would be in a hole worse then now & probably wouldn't have Elias to talk to & I wouldn't be able to get the chance to find out what I need to do to make myself happy before I have kids.
And now my grandma, I am not to sure what is going to come out of this situation.
I believe God gives us tests throughout our lives to see how well we can handle it and I think it is a good way to learn.
3? What would you say your TWO most attractive traits are inside (personality), and out (looks)?
personality traits:
1. the ablility to put others feelings before my own. It can be rewarding because I love to help but it does bother me sometimes because people take that for granted and no one is willing to be there for me.
2. I am open-minded. I am open to new ideas, people, situations expcept for harmful substances and anything that can hurt someone else or myself. I look for the good in people and situations. I don't discriminate against anyone, this is just not the person I am.
looks:
1. my eyes because they change color & the eyes are the most important part of your face [that is my opinion]
2. my eyebrows
4? How do your friends see you (the advice giver, the one who's always there, or what)? the one with advice. I love to be able to help but sometimes I need someone to help me out. Even throughout this with my grandma in a coma I am STILL giving my friends adivce but no one wants to know how I am feeling. It is kind of sad that I allow that to happen.
5? Who, or what do you think influenced you to act the way you do the most? my mom, other teens, celebrities & this damn government
I don't want to be like my mom, she was a drug addict and she smokes and I see how she is living now and I don't EVER want to be in the same situation.
Other teens because a majority want to be like everyone else. Dress the same, talk the same, act the same, look the same and that shit gets old, I like to be unique and I won't change who I am to please anyone.
Also celebrities because people think they are perfect, they are people and they are imperfect.
I can't stand this desire for perfection in an imperfect world.
Also the government because I don't believe in the crap they say, I don't like politics, I refuse to watch the news.
I have tried to be open to their ideas but the older you get the more you learn.
So all that has taught me to think for myself and be who I want to be reguardless of what people think and say.
6? Post a picture that describes you, & your personality the most (THE PICTURE CAN'T BE OF YOU). You don't have to do this one, but it's a plus if you do.
__ Things that make you different (opinion questions).
1? What do you think of capital punishment (the death penalty)? I don't agree, what is the point of killing people? Punishment? Yeah...must be a man that thought about this crap.
It is pointless! If your killing someone for killing you make no sense, then does this mean that person should die to?
your taking a life, I don't care what they did, when the time comes God will deal with that person.
They should just be put into a room by themselves, allow them to go nuts and learn from their mistakes.
2? What celebrity, or celebrities do you think infulences people (particularly kids, & teenagers)?
All of them in some way. Kids & teens look for a person to look up to and who is always in the media? Celebrities.
In music, movies, tv, you can't escape it.
I don't like when people are infulenced in a negative way by others but when you are young can you honeslty say you know better?
You have to experience things in order to learn from them.
__ Let's get random (random questions, & such).
1? Describe your "style." comfortable. My style depends on my mood.
I like wearing jeans & t-shirts but sometimes I like to wear my hawaiian dress usually when I feel pretty & all hawaiian like lol.
Also love pj's & Elias's pj's at that.
2? Tell us a joke, or post something FUNNY (make us laugh).
3? What do you think of this _insideandout overall (the application, the layout, the members, or whatever)?
the application gives me more freedom to write what I want about who I am.
The layout I love I just don't like the color.
the members I don't know but I look forward to getting to know them.
This community is something I would enjoy because it isn't based only on looks considering we live in a society that is.
4? What could we do to improve _insideandout? to be honest I am not sure, but as of now nothing.
5? How could you benefit this community (why should you be accepted)? I feel that I am different.
I am willing to get to know people, be active & bring a personality that isn't common.
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** ? PROMOTE US AT LEAST ONE PLACE (be careful to whom you promote to), & show us the where you promoted (you may promote with either banner on the info page, just copy & paste).
http://www.livejournal.com/community/__p_r_o_m_o__/638896.html
http://www.livejournal.com/users/belbeach/
__ Show us what's on the outside (POST AT LEAST TWO CLEAR PICTURES).
Also, please post a 100x100 picture of you (for the member's page just in case you get accepted).
if I do become a member I would like to use this picture but I don't know how to resize it.
This is my boyfriend Elias, I thought I should post a picture of him because he is such a big part of my life.
I cut his hair, ahh lovely mohawk :)