hello? hi? anybody?
does anyone even use this thing anymore?
raise your hand, or maybe even comment if you dare.
my longest livejournal hiatus. it's pretty much officially dead.
the reason why i came back: angst.
yup.
i have been surprisingly happy for awhile, but i just recently hit a bad patch and am lonely for someone to talk to. ah livejournal, always online for those in need.
maybe it's because i've been rehashing the past. now that i'm counting there's a lot of bad blood between me and some people. How do I apologize? How do I tell someone off because i didn't have the courage to before? How do i get closure? I need closure. But that doesn't always happen, and i'm pretty bitter about it.
My memory has gone to shits. where'd my brain go? alcohol? i doubt it is the alcohol really. i hardly ever get shitfaced. I'm proud that i don't do that anymore.
Though I have this big problem of remembering things i don't want to think about, but forgetting all the things i wish I could remember.
I feel like i've been living a new life recently with my lifestyle and new people i've met. I honestly like it. But I honestly don't really fit into it very well. I'm split between being really responsible and just doing what i want to do.
I don't talk to my parents anymore because my mother just brings me down so much. I have just made the decision that it's best we don't talk. It never ends up good. this hurts.
i really suck as a designer. I just can't do it anymore. I don't know what happened - creativity, ingenuity, and the ability to produce has completely left me. or maybe i'm just drained. maybe i shouldn't be doing this anymore.
My grandpa is super ill. we don't think he's going to last much longer.
my parents hate the fact that i'm going out with justin.
i feel like a really poor girlfriend.
I have a really terrible social anxiety case that makes me worry about what might happen to me in the future.
I worry about myself a lot.
I worry a lot.
I think i'm done now.
now to look back on past days and be nostalgic.
until next time.
raise your hand, or maybe even comment if you dare.
my longest livejournal hiatus. it's pretty much officially dead.
the reason why i came back: angst.
yup.
i have been surprisingly happy for awhile, but i just recently hit a bad patch and am lonely for someone to talk to. ah livejournal, always online for those in need.
maybe it's because i've been rehashing the past. now that i'm counting there's a lot of bad blood between me and some people. How do I apologize? How do I tell someone off because i didn't have the courage to before? How do i get closure? I need closure. But that doesn't always happen, and i'm pretty bitter about it.
My memory has gone to shits. where'd my brain go? alcohol? i doubt it is the alcohol really. i hardly ever get shitfaced. I'm proud that i don't do that anymore.
Though I have this big problem of remembering things i don't want to think about, but forgetting all the things i wish I could remember.
I feel like i've been living a new life recently with my lifestyle and new people i've met. I honestly like it. But I honestly don't really fit into it very well. I'm split between being really responsible and just doing what i want to do.
I don't talk to my parents anymore because my mother just brings me down so much. I have just made the decision that it's best we don't talk. It never ends up good. this hurts.
i really suck as a designer. I just can't do it anymore. I don't know what happened - creativity, ingenuity, and the ability to produce has completely left me. or maybe i'm just drained. maybe i shouldn't be doing this anymore.
My grandpa is super ill. we don't think he's going to last much longer.
my parents hate the fact that i'm going out with justin.
i feel like a really poor girlfriend.
I have a really terrible social anxiety case that makes me worry about what might happen to me in the future.
I worry about myself a lot.
I worry a lot.
I think i'm done now.
now to look back on past days and be nostalgic.
until next time.