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[_jaye_]

I got my results today.

First I felt like throwing a fit.

Then I felt depressed.

Then I felt inferior.

And then it's failure.

Then I felt like crying.

And I really wanted to injure myself.

Then I felt really bad.

Then I felt like crying.

And dying.

Now I feel all those.

I think I really will begin to cry soon.  Just the matter of time.

Comments

[jellynesh]

#Always look on the briight side of life.

*whistles and huggles*

[_jaye_]

*hugs back*

Heh, thanks :) I'll try, but I can't promise.

[jellynesh]

You're a great person, don't put yourself down like that :)

[jellylike]

They couldn't have been that bad, could they? :( I know it must feel horrible to not get the grades you want, especially when you were so sure you'd get them. I know the feeling where you feel like you've failed so totally and utterly that you don't think there's any reason to keep living, because you're just bound to fail again and again. You know what though? You really shouldn't feel inferior because of your grades. You tried; plus, if I recall, you were already worked out with IT coursework and your issues with this... Nicole... person. Plus, I know how burdening it is to feel down and have to hide it behind a constant smile. Your grades don't mean that you're stupid or useless or anything that you think you are because of them. They just mean that you can memorize huge chunks of crap in a limited period of time, while juggling other pieces of work and huge deals of stress, and spew them out in a way that pleases the examiner. The exams really don't mark your intellect at all; they mark your ability to soak up info and puke it all