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THOSE WHO I MAY BITCH ABOUT OR OFFEND IN THIS, DON'T COMMENT THEN. THE WHOLE POINT IN A JOURNAL IS TO EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS. IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING RUDE TO SAY ABOUT ANYTHING I SAY BELOW, WRITE ABOUT IT IN YOUR OWN LJ. THANK YOU.
anyway. all my friends just, i can't explain it.
my supposedly best friend keeps going on about this stupid guy on gaia. she won't shut up about him. she KNOWS that i seem to be the only person who doesn't have a special close friend, or anyone who properly listens or understands me, and she still goes on and on. she's like "oh no, i spent my gold, now i'll have nothing left for HIS PRESENT." and "oh, i might get minis from him" and "i <3 him blah blah blah." it's like she doesn't even care who it is she's talknig to, just as long as someone listens. and then in real life she's just as bad. i sing a song, and then she gets cross at me for supposedly doing a note wrong, nad stupid little shit like that. and then my other friend isn't quite so bad with it, but she's always going on about this girl from her school, and blah blah. and all my in school friends i barely even talk to. i just feel like a silent echo clinging to them and i fucking hate it. so, basically, i'm pissed off at my retarded so-called social life.
the only person who really sort of understands me and stuff is my sister's friend, and then my sister gets pissed off that i'm friends with her. i just need one really really close real life friend who likes what i like, but then doesn't cling to me or tease me when i want to be left alone. and i need someone who doesn't always take tiny things the wrong way and stuff.
and then, there isn't a wide selection of people at school.
just popular, tall, pretty, slutty girls. then the geeks and psycopaths and stalkers. and then a few normal people but they're.. either too normal or i feel clingy when i'm with them or whatever.
everyone calls me a fucking goth. i go "why?" and they're all like "COZ U'VE GOT BLAK HARE!!" i don't even have fucking black hair, are you colour-blind? it's BROWN. and all the boys i like, i seem to think like me at first, then when i start to like them, they totally and uttttteeeeerly hate me.
the little year sevens are so fucking annoying on the bus too. there's about eight geeks who sit in the front four pairs of seats, that's okay. then from there until about six pairs of seats at the back, it's year sevens, who for some reason think that theit asses must be the size of a football field, and take up two seats each. so you're sat in a chair, listening to your ipod, AND A STUPID LITTLE FUCKING KID LEAND OVER YOU AND SQUIRTS INK IN YOUR FUCKING HAIR AND ALL OVER THE WINDOW. so you start drawing pictures on the window with the ink and then they call you a fucking goth.
so to sum it all up - i hate everyone.
only people i like are mum, dad, rachel, becky and my online friends.
thing is, i don't want to die because i know i'd hurt so many people, and i'd also be scared of the pain. and i know that, yes i am, a clever and talented girl who is bound to get great grades in all my exams, and have an extremely wide range of job possibilities, but deep down, i'm just too enigmatic.
and one last thing..
IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I'VE SAID, DON'T COMMENT.
"say something nice or don't say anythnig at all."
EDIT:
conniexbear wrote:
FUCK OFF ELLE.
ME, SAYING YOU DO A WRONG NOTE?
FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF. WHO THE FUCK SAID THAT? OHYEAH, I REMEMBER. YOU. FUCK OFF. SHUT UP. GET A LIFE.
YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS.
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and do i fucking have to repeat this again? I TOLD YOU AT THE FUCKING BEGINNING. GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME? WRITE ABOUT IT IN YOUR OWN FUCKING JOURNAL AND STOP FUCKING LYING ABOUT MY FUCKING LIFE. PFFT, JEALOUS? OF YOU? THERE'S NOTHING TO BE JEALOUS OF. YOU HATE ME SO FUCKING MUCH? FINE, LET ME GO FIND A RUSTY RAZOR TO SLIT MY FUCKING THROAT WITH YOU FUCKING HYPOCRITE. I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING TO SAY SORRY. BYE.
anyway. all my friends just, i can't explain it.
my supposedly best friend keeps going on about this stupid guy on gaia. she won't shut up about him. she KNOWS that i seem to be the only person who doesn't have a special close friend, or anyone who properly listens or understands me, and she still goes on and on. she's like "oh no, i spent my gold, now i'll have nothing left for HIS PRESENT." and "oh, i might get minis from him" and "i <3 him blah blah blah." it's like she doesn't even care who it is she's talknig to, just as long as someone listens. and then in real life she's just as bad. i sing a song, and then she gets cross at me for supposedly doing a note wrong, nad stupid little shit like that. and then my other friend isn't quite so bad with it, but she's always going on about this girl from her school, and blah blah. and all my in school friends i barely even talk to. i just feel like a silent echo clinging to them and i fucking hate it. so, basically, i'm pissed off at my retarded so-called social life.
the only person who really sort of understands me and stuff is my sister's friend, and then my sister gets pissed off that i'm friends with her. i just need one really really close real life friend who likes what i like, but then doesn't cling to me or tease me when i want to be left alone. and i need someone who doesn't always take tiny things the wrong way and stuff.
and then, there isn't a wide selection of people at school.
just popular, tall, pretty, slutty girls. then the geeks and psycopaths and stalkers. and then a few normal people but they're.. either too normal or i feel clingy when i'm with them or whatever.
everyone calls me a fucking goth. i go "why?" and they're all like "COZ U'VE GOT BLAK HARE!!" i don't even have fucking black hair, are you colour-blind? it's BROWN. and all the boys i like, i seem to think like me at first, then when i start to like them, they totally and uttttteeeeerly hate me.
the little year sevens are so fucking annoying on the bus too. there's about eight geeks who sit in the front four pairs of seats, that's okay. then from there until about six pairs of seats at the back, it's year sevens, who for some reason think that theit asses must be the size of a football field, and take up two seats each. so you're sat in a chair, listening to your ipod, AND A STUPID LITTLE FUCKING KID LEAND OVER YOU AND SQUIRTS INK IN YOUR FUCKING HAIR AND ALL OVER THE WINDOW. so you start drawing pictures on the window with the ink and then they call you a fucking goth.
so to sum it all up - i hate everyone.
only people i like are mum, dad, rachel, becky and my online friends.
thing is, i don't want to die because i know i'd hurt so many people, and i'd also be scared of the pain. and i know that, yes i am, a clever and talented girl who is bound to get great grades in all my exams, and have an extremely wide range of job possibilities, but deep down, i'm just too enigmatic.
and one last thing..
IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I'VE SAID, DON'T COMMENT.
"say something nice or don't say anythnig at all."
EDIT:
conniexbear wrote:
FUCK OFF ELLE.
ME, SAYING YOU DO A WRONG NOTE?
FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF. WHO THE FUCK SAID THAT? OHYEAH, I REMEMBER. YOU. FUCK OFF. SHUT UP. GET A LIFE.
YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS.
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and do i fucking have to repeat this again? I TOLD YOU AT THE FUCKING BEGINNING. GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME? WRITE ABOUT IT IN YOUR OWN FUCKING JOURNAL AND STOP FUCKING LYING ABOUT MY FUCKING LIFE. PFFT, JEALOUS? OF YOU? THERE'S NOTHING TO BE JEALOUS OF. YOU HATE ME SO FUCKING MUCH? FINE, LET ME GO FIND A RUSTY RAZOR TO SLIT MY FUCKING THROAT WITH YOU FUCKING HYPOCRITE. I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING TO SAY SORRY. BYE.