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sorry, my other entry just had to go.
basically, lately i've been feeling like crap. i mean, don't get me wrong, i'm totally happy and everything.. it's just some things are beginning to get old and everything.
i hope you aren't expecting me to talk about my personal life, because i think everyone here knows that i don't. maybe a little thing here or there, but i'm really stopping that. there are some things that you just need to keep to yourself sometimes. i think that my personal life is what i need to keep to myself. i just think it would help my situation a lot.
as i said earlier, things are going good with everyone that i WAS fueding with. whatever. i really don't want any drama next year. i realize that it's highschool, and part of being in highschool is dealing with drama.. but it shouldn't be that way. i just want to do my time, and get the fuck out. i think last year, i dealt with a lot of it,becuase i caused a lot of it. i was a bitch to basically everyone, and i was really selfish. yeahyeah, you get the point. i think next year, i'm not going to be so bitchy (people i REALLY can't stand and never will.. i decided i can be a bitch to, because they don't matter:)) i'm going to try to get along with ust everyone. i'm not starting drama, i ust can't deal with it anymore. it's so annoying and retarded. i ust hope central isn't skankin it up next year like it was last year.
i need to get out of my house a lot more, i am so serious. the only time i ever get out is with elijah, and lately it's been like once a week. i'm not letting my fucking summer go to waste, so i need to get my ass up and find things to do. like take my road test. i am going to California in 3 weeks exactly. The day I get back I have to wake up for school in the morning, so i need to make some plans right about now. if one person says "let's hannnnng out!~" and we don't, don't ever ask me again because i'm sick and fucking tired of hearing that. okay. moving on.
lately, i've ust been a nervous wreck. i black out a lot too, i don't know if anyone has been feeling that lately? i get really dizzy and i blackout. not good. i'm wishing the 5th would not come for all sorts of reasons, but for one other i'm wishing it would pass. I don't want to find out something that is gonna ruin me, or my life. I don't understand why you have to make mistakes, or regret things. it's bullshit if you ask me. but that's ust if you ask me. :) i'm still scared, and i know i haven't shown it, but i ammmm scared to damn death. ahhh.
i hate it here. i want to get away, for good. and never come back to this filthy town again as long as i live. who in their right mind would stay here? i think once i graduate, i'm taking my graudation money, and catching the next plane to california. i plan on going to college, but if i don't end up going, i'm down with that. i need to get out of here before i blow my head off. i'm sick of the people here, i really really am. there's never anything to damn do. there's nowhere to go. it's fucking humid as all ever. i can barely breathe. i wake up in lake huron. it's fucking disgusting and i'm tired of living like this. this house is really fucking gay too.
i love elijah with everything i have and 33048394 x more, and i'm fucking sick of girls thinking they can ust say whatever, and do whatever. like omfgz, he's soo0o0o0o0o hot and emo and omgomg. i wanna do him!!~~! mainly because i'm a whoreeeeee and i'm totally ust ugly and fat. i am ust tired of it, and i mean sure it's life, people are gonna want your babe.. i guess it's worse for girls who have bf's in bands. elijah isn't even in a band, but he practically has a fucking fan club, and it's really pathetic and makes me want to vomit all over their ugly teeth (becuase they usually have ugly teeth) and their REALLY ugly faces. >:O>:O>:O>:O>:O>:O>:O DO NOT CALL MY BABE GORGEOUS,HOT,ADORABLE,FINE,CUTE OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT EVER AGAIN. because you see it really annoys and bothers me, and i might ust have to punch your lights out:D
that is all <33 i hope you enjoyed that:)
ps-i redid my layoutttt. it's cututututuute<3
basically, lately i've been feeling like crap. i mean, don't get me wrong, i'm totally happy and everything.. it's just some things are beginning to get old and everything.
i hope you aren't expecting me to talk about my personal life, because i think everyone here knows that i don't. maybe a little thing here or there, but i'm really stopping that. there are some things that you just need to keep to yourself sometimes. i think that my personal life is what i need to keep to myself. i just think it would help my situation a lot.
as i said earlier, things are going good with everyone that i WAS fueding with. whatever. i really don't want any drama next year. i realize that it's highschool, and part of being in highschool is dealing with drama.. but it shouldn't be that way. i just want to do my time, and get the fuck out. i think last year, i dealt with a lot of it,becuase i caused a lot of it. i was a bitch to basically everyone, and i was really selfish. yeahyeah, you get the point. i think next year, i'm not going to be so bitchy (people i REALLY can't stand and never will.. i decided i can be a bitch to, because they don't matter:)) i'm going to try to get along with ust everyone. i'm not starting drama, i ust can't deal with it anymore. it's so annoying and retarded. i ust hope central isn't skankin it up next year like it was last year.
i need to get out of my house a lot more, i am so serious. the only time i ever get out is with elijah, and lately it's been like once a week. i'm not letting my fucking summer go to waste, so i need to get my ass up and find things to do. like take my road test. i am going to California in 3 weeks exactly. The day I get back I have to wake up for school in the morning, so i need to make some plans right about now. if one person says "let's hannnnng out!~" and we don't, don't ever ask me again because i'm sick and fucking tired of hearing that. okay. moving on.
lately, i've ust been a nervous wreck. i black out a lot too, i don't know if anyone has been feeling that lately? i get really dizzy and i blackout. not good. i'm wishing the 5th would not come for all sorts of reasons, but for one other i'm wishing it would pass. I don't want to find out something that is gonna ruin me, or my life. I don't understand why you have to make mistakes, or regret things. it's bullshit if you ask me. but that's ust if you ask me. :) i'm still scared, and i know i haven't shown it, but i ammmm scared to damn death. ahhh.
i hate it here. i want to get away, for good. and never come back to this filthy town again as long as i live. who in their right mind would stay here? i think once i graduate, i'm taking my graudation money, and catching the next plane to california. i plan on going to college, but if i don't end up going, i'm down with that. i need to get out of here before i blow my head off. i'm sick of the people here, i really really am. there's never anything to damn do. there's nowhere to go. it's fucking humid as all ever. i can barely breathe. i wake up in lake huron. it's fucking disgusting and i'm tired of living like this. this house is really fucking gay too.
i love elijah with everything i have and 33048394 x more, and i'm fucking sick of girls thinking they can ust say whatever, and do whatever. like omfgz, he's soo0o0o0o0o hot and emo and omgomg. i wanna do him!!~~! mainly because i'm a whoreeeeee and i'm totally ust ugly and fat. i am ust tired of it, and i mean sure it's life, people are gonna want your babe.. i guess it's worse for girls who have bf's in bands. elijah isn't even in a band, but he practically has a fucking fan club, and it's really pathetic and makes me want to vomit all over their ugly teeth (becuase they usually have ugly teeth) and their REALLY ugly faces. >:O>:O>:O>:O>:O>:O>:O DO NOT CALL MY BABE GORGEOUS,HOT,ADORABLE,FINE,CUTE OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT EVER AGAIN. because you see it really annoys and bothers me, and i might ust have to punch your lights out:D
that is all <33 i hope you enjoyed that:)
ps-i redid my layoutttt. it's cututututuute<3