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[eternally_ozs]

Eventually I cried myself to sleep in Jenny's lap. I didn't understand the mix of emotions I was feeling and I didn't understand why this had happened to me, but as much as they told me it wasn't my fault, I felt it was. I felt like somehow I made Angel come into my room, or maybe if I had done the deinviting spell right, or any number of other

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[wolfedman]

I seemed to have been forgotten after Cordelia's and Xander's exit to the bathroom. Joyce made her way to the couch and sat down. I didn't know what else I could do, but I knew I couldn't stay there, doing nothing. I was tired and emotionally worn out and needed sleep.

So I took the opportunity to slip out without an argument and head home. By the time anyone realised I was gone I'd be home, plus if Joyce had her way then no-one else would leave the house to look for me anyway.

Arriving in school the next day I was still shattered, even though I'd been tired I still lay awake for most of the night, not being able to silence my thoughts long enough for sleep to come. Wandering if there was anything I could have done that would have saved Willow going through this pain.

I headed to the library almost instantly, hoping to see someone already there, but even Giles was missing and out of boredom decided to wander round the stacks until I heard a voice calling out.

"A--Any--Anyone here?"Willow. I walked back out to the main foyer

[eternally_ozs]

I was nervous, I know I said I wanted him near..but it also frightened me.

"I..I am ok"

A outright lie, but I hate that he worries so much.

"G--Giles isn't here? Or Bu--Buffy?"

Ok this stutter I have developed...got to go.

[wolfedman]

"Just us." I reply, wondering whether she's asking out of concern for them or whether she just doesn't want to be alone with me.

"Did you get some sleep at Jenny's?" I ask trying to feel out how she is, not truly believing she's okay. How can she be?

[eternally_ozs]

I nodded nervously

"I think she gave me something to help me sleep. I don't remember her moving me to a bed but this morning I woke up in one."

I said softly as I moved closer to him and timidly hugged him. Once I was in his arms though I felt safe and relaxed some. It was nice to feel protected and I knew I was with him.

[wolfedman]

I smile back at Willow, wanting her to feel safe with me. Glad that she seems to feel safe with me.

I head to the table, still holding onto Willow's hand to pull her with me.

"Here's as good as anywhere." I reply. "People'll think we're working."

[eternally_ozs]

I allow him to lead me to the table and I sit next to him my hand in his and my head resting on his shoulder.

"I don't care what they think.."

I whispered

"I dare Snyder to say something to me..maybe I will float a pencil at him..ok that wouldn't do a bit of good..but yeah. I don't have the control right now anyway."

[wolfedman]

As Willow rests her head on my shoulder I listen to her ramble about floating pencils at Snyder without really paying too much attention. I think she just needs to speak, needs to hear her own voice without it trembling.

"You'll get the control back. You just need a bit of time." I say, trying to comfort Willow.

[eternally_ozs]

I look at him as he caresses me.

"Why are you so wonderful?"

I asked wondering how someone so amazing could be interested in me.

[eternally_ozs]

I smiled at Oz, thankful that he agreed with me, even though I knew that it was only because he cared for me that he was even willing to consider not killing Angelus, himself...

"I think that we just need to do whats best, I know that I wish he was dead...well completely dead and that I could be the one to do it, but honestly he wants hell, he longs for it so wouldn't sending him there be giving him what he wants?"

I asked softly

"I think it would be more painful for him to suffer through seeing the person he tortured and..."

I started to tear up

"Well you know..seeing me day after day living my life that would be more of a punishment for him."

[wolfedman]

I pull Willow in close to me and hug her tightly, feeling the tears against my skin as she buries her head into my shoulder.

"We need to do this quickly Giles. Is there nothing you know of that could help Jenny translate the texts?"

[frisky_watcher]

I shook my head

"She is of the clan that cursed him in the first place, if she can't figure the translations, than I don't know who can."

I said softly almost dejected. I hated that somethings I couldn't manage.

"I will discuss this with her when I speak to her later..as for now we have time till sunset before any concern need be paid to Angelus."

[eternally_ozs]

I rested my head on Oz's shoulder as I tried to hold in the tears.

"Alright"

I said softly and then looked to Oz

"I need to go..I can't stay here"

I whispered.

[eternally_ozs]

I looked at him my eyes holding so much pain within. I unlocked the door and let him in, but part of me was terrified to walk in.

"I..I will be safe right?"

I asked softly.

[wolfedman]

"While I still breath, you'll be safe." I answer, hoping this gives her some comfort. I stand in the hallway, not sure exactly what Willow wants to do, or where in the house she's comfortable being.

[eternally_ozs]

I walk in slowly unsure, but as long as Oz is here I will be ok..I hope.

"Umm..I.."

I don't know what to say or do then I notice some things out of place..nothing major, but I begin to obsess.

"I'm sorry this place is a mess"

I say as I quickly move to clean

[wolfedman]

I see her start to clean up the slightly out of place things. "Willow." I say, but she doesn't pay any attention to me.

"Willow." I say more forcefully now as I put my hands on her shoulders. "It's okay. It's not a mess."