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[cordiechase]

"Cor, you know what you mean to me, he said the things to you because he knew that would hurt you more than death. I am lost without you and wish you would please just let me show you that."I hear his muffled voice say those words, outside the bathroom door. I wanted to open the door so bad but, something was stopping me. Angelus's words echoed

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[seerxander]

I hear her call my name and she sounds so broken. I just wanted to make one person feel better. If I couldn't help Willow than atleast I could help my girlfriend.

"Cordy?"

I said back my voice full of concern.

"Please open the door."

I was just short of begging, it couldn't be the cutest thing I had ever done.

[cordiechase]

I stand there, tears running down my face looking at the closed door in front of me. "Please open the door." It makes me cry more that he's almost begging for me to open the door. The twisted thing is, I want him to beg me to open the door. Maybe then, I'd feel important and wanted.

I'm stuck between Angelus' words of possible truth, and Xanders' words. Angelus has managed to screw my head up in one night! This is not me. I'm Cordelia fucking Chase! I don't cry. I don't beg for attention. I get what I want, when I want it, and I'm always the center of attention. What the hell is going on in this bizarro world?!? I can't play the little weakling. I need to be strong. I turn away from the door and look back in the mirror. I wiped my tears with my shirt. I will not live in fear of Angelus. When he sees me again, he's not going to see me. He's going to see the good ol' bitch, Cordelia Chase. This still doesn't fix my current dilemma

[seerxander]

Ok begging not working..it was time for plan B. I asked Joyce for a screw driver and I took about 3 minutes popping the screws out of the hinges and pulled the door off the setting.

"I went for the more direct approach"

I said as I knelt beside her and took her into my arms.

"Can we please talk..without a door inbetween us. I love you Cordy, I am sorry that what happened tonight made you think otherwise, but I am willing to make up for it, if you will let me."

I prayed it would work, it was either that or I should prepare for a punch. Cordy had a great right hook.

[cordiechase]

I stared at him for it seemed like hours. I can't believe he unscrewed the damn door and came in here. I really wanted to punch him. In my head I was ready to struck, but my arm and fist wouldn't move. He never gives up does he. Had to take the 'direct approach', instead of begging.

"Can we please talk..without a door inbetween us. I love you Cordy, I am sorry that what happened tonight made you think otherwise, but I am willing to make up for it, if you will let me."

All I heard in that sentence was I love you Cordy, and it instantly melted my heart. I started crying more. Then looked into his brown eyes, "Y-you really love me? Xander, please tell me the truth", I pleaded with him. "Make Angelus wrong! I need to know that everything he said is a lie", I cried and hugged him so hard and clutched on to him. I hope he wasn't having a hard time breathing, because I didn't want to let go.