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The two best friends I have made in college have moved or are moving in the next 4 days. This really sucks. I'm going to be such a loser this coming year starting now. Nobody calls me to just simply hang out with them and I'm sick of putting in unrequited effort. The times people do ask me to hang out I can't or I'm at work. I wish that I was ( Read more... ) -
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It's been awhile since I last posted in November, when I wanted to get into a car crash so I could avoid going to work. I haven't even been on lj in a couple of months even, I don't think.
I'm at work right now. My first shift working at my "new" job at the shelter I've been interning at all year. I got hired for on-call/weekend staff, so now both ( Read more... ) -
August, I'll see you soon...
I moved. About a week and a half ago, into a house in Grand Rapids. I really love it. I don't know what it is, but it's seems like there is something about being in this actual, free-standing house, in a neighborhood, that makes me feel really at home. The feeling was pretty much instant too. I live with my friend and her boyfriend too, and it's ( Read more... ) -
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I've royally fucked up. I'll know within the next 1-6 days whether or not it will have an impact on the rest of my life, but if this is what has caused me to fuck up my life that fuck me because i'm fucing retarted! I'm such a fucking idiot. I can't believe I'd do something to jeoprdize an opportunity like this that was so stupid. I hate myself and ( Read more... ) -
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I think I've written about this exact topic before, however, the time is come again to re-discuss this idiocracy ( Read more... ) -
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Until today math homework hasn't made me cry since 9th grade Mrs. Cooklin. The memories are quickly starting to return. The calculation of a test statistic makes 21 year old college girl burst into tears. Tragic. -
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I've never been so content to sit alone at home by myself on a Friday night. -
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I have this obsession of trying to "figure myself out." I'll read these psychological, self-help therapy books and constantly obsess over flaws I see in myself. I could make a list 10 pages long of "problems" or inadequacies that I have; things I need to work or improve upon, things I should change, things to make me a better person. I constantly ( Read more... ) -
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*Edit* I don't know why, but this week has been the hardest week to get through in my life. I'm not motivated at all, I just want to skip all of my classes (which I've partially done..) and go home. I haven't been home or seen anyone from home in more than a month and it's making me sad. I'm going to attempt to go home either tonight or tomorrow, ( Read more... ) -
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I've thought about this before, but Sarah brought it to my mind again. She seems to have figued out why, but I'm still wondering...
Why do I strive to be busy? I already had a job (granted I get on average of 8 hours/week), but I went out and found another one. I'll be working at the Women's Center 7 hours/week this semester, waitressing at the ( Read more... )