< june 3
>:(
it just had to be this month. everything's hurting me, emotionally&physically. :\ i feel like i'be been bullied. but really, you can say i've bullied myself.
-i shouldn't have joined the track team this year. mother was right (n). it's just not fit for me.
dance and track team=whole body aching. everypart of my body is literally hurt. my toes are the weak from ballet; ankle is still swollen; i got a muscle strain on my foot; shins could snap, from tapping; my calves are the weakest things ever; knees will soon pass out; quads are stiff; thighs are bulky x); my butt is sore; abs are useless, it's hard for me to sit and stand; lower back i think has problems; vanes on my arms are like freakishly wierd; shoulder blades are barely moving; biceps aren't well, i can't stretch my arm much; neck feels like pig, they have no necks, wth?; wrists are flimbsy; fingers look fragile that they can break; carpet&floor burns are anywhere possible; and that's all i can think of. and im not kidding. i don't understand how i can move, everytime i walk, my hip cracks :\
-some things feel opposite for me than from some of you other people :\ hanging w/ friends outside of school is most likely normal for you all. but it's like a very hard commitment to keep for me. i struggle with it. and practises&lessons or all that other stuff outside of school may be a commitment for you. but to me, it's like you hanging with your friends. if you understand...
-i got my ballet exam marks back. at least i passed. psssh, i don't have the body to be a ballerina. that's what brought my marks down. omfg :**( i swear i felt like crying at the time. so what if i don't have the body? i know i can dance ballet. isn't that what counts? eff you examiner&producers of the exam or whatever. geese, this isn't the national ballet. gaaah, i don't care anymore. when i get older, i'll mess you examination people up. 'cause i know i can (: i got connections ;)
no, i won't do that, that's mean. i'll grow up to be a dancer. i know it. maybe even a touring one. what now!? eeew, i sound so conceited
THE ONLY THING GOOD THIS JUNE IS MOUNT ALVERNO <3
ANYWHOOO...
there would be more i would tell (: but it shall be confidential to me&some other random people.
fkiucng psserured.
i'm such a hopeless person. and i deserve this
a curse perhaps? wth. i'm still smiling bitch! can't stop, won't stop me. what now, fag!?!
it just had to be this month. everything's hurting me, emotionally&physically. :\ i feel like i'be been bullied. but really, you can say i've bullied myself.
-i shouldn't have joined the track team this year. mother was right (n). it's just not fit for me.
dance and track team=whole body aching. everypart of my body is literally hurt. my toes are the weak from ballet; ankle is still swollen; i got a muscle strain on my foot; shins could snap, from tapping; my calves are the weakest things ever; knees will soon pass out; quads are stiff; thighs are bulky x); my butt is sore; abs are useless, it's hard for me to sit and stand; lower back i think has problems; vanes on my arms are like freakishly wierd; shoulder blades are barely moving; biceps aren't well, i can't stretch my arm much; neck feels like pig, they have no necks, wth?; wrists are flimbsy; fingers look fragile that they can break; carpet&floor burns are anywhere possible; and that's all i can think of. and im not kidding. i don't understand how i can move, everytime i walk, my hip cracks :\
-some things feel opposite for me than from some of you other people :\ hanging w/ friends outside of school is most likely normal for you all. but it's like a very hard commitment to keep for me. i struggle with it. and practises&lessons or all that other stuff outside of school may be a commitment for you. but to me, it's like you hanging with your friends. if you understand...
-i got my ballet exam marks back. at least i passed. psssh, i don't have the body to be a ballerina. that's what brought my marks down. omfg :**( i swear i felt like crying at the time. so what if i don't have the body? i know i can dance ballet. isn't that what counts? eff you examiner&producers of the exam or whatever. geese, this isn't the national ballet. gaaah, i don't care anymore. when i get older, i'll mess you examination people up. 'cause i know i can (: i got connections ;)
no, i won't do that, that's mean. i'll grow up to be a dancer. i know it. maybe even a touring one. what now!? eeew, i sound so conceited
THE ONLY THING GOOD THIS JUNE IS MOUNT ALVERNO <3
ANYWHOOO...
there would be more i would tell (: but it shall be confidential to me&some other random people.
fkiucng psserured.
i'm such a hopeless person. and i deserve this
a curse perhaps? wth. i'm still smiling bitch! can't stop, won't stop me. what now, fag!?!