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chris,
thank you so much for the past months, its been amazing but its also been difficult and painful. i wouldntve made it through those months without you though, so i do owe a lot to you. i just have to end this because i have to hold things back from you, and thats not like me. i either dont tell people anything or i choose one or two people who i do talk to, and at first you were one of the ones i could tell things to. i cant anymore though. im not saying that friday night you didnt have a good reason not to come but i really needed someone to talk to and all you did was say no ttyl. and we havent even talked since wednesday. i figure ive gone 5 days, why not try 5 weeks, and then 5 months. itll all work itself out. and hey if it doesnt then you wont have to worry bout me anymore because i wont be a part of your life. i do love you and ill always care about you. im sorry if this is unexpected, or even if its not. im not gonna do anything so that we cant talk, but i wont be the one to IM, text or call you. if you want to talk about this, itll be up to you but im not gonna let you lead me to believe that nothing is wrong in this relationship, cause a lot is/was.
love,
laurel