Now I'm actually looking forward to school a bit, a whole new year and a whole new start ( Read more... )

So um, I haven't updated in a while ( Read more... )

I used to know you like the back of my hand
Until today you held your place
Now you're shifting like the sand
Your chest would heave with pride if I were spoken of
'Till tonight I never knew the difference between comfort and love

Although you're sleeping right next to me
Well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream
leading a life that is ( Read more... )

So, I'm respecting his decision of giving him time to find himself.  
I know I didn't give him time the first time because I was breathing down his neck and couldn't see clearly that its what is needed.
I'll just try and make my way through it on a positive note.
I disrespect myself so much though, and I feel so low about myself and the things I'm ( Read more... )

I'm in such an awesome mood, I got my baby back,
This has been a fun week, and I'm more thankful than ever.
AND I have to add, that I love Ashley Bain, what a sweetheart.
I love where I am right now and I've finally found the bright spots again.
Ryan<3.
I love our little pulloffs, and strange noises and faces we make, and just everything, you're so ( Read more... )

Last night I felt fine.  I sat out on the porch underneath the stars alone, but I didn't feel lonely at all.  I was writing and that's an escape for me from reality.  Amazing how such a simple thing can be such a mind opener.

"I'm just sitting here all alone watching the stars and the fireflies shining so bright.  The feelings of loneliness and ( Read more... )

Oh my god, today was so much fun.<333333333.

9 lasts ( Read more... )

I've realized that a break might be a good thing, just a little time to chill out and be single. We're still young, and we have plenty of time. Not too much is changing really, and each time we talk it helps. It's just everything reminds me of us and in everybody I see certain parts that remind me of him, and certain words and ways. But he's an ( Read more... )

Fuck this, I hate this.