i take a step back and think "what am i doing?" heck i'll live for the moment and regret it later. it happens anyways

it makes me angry when i take a step up to be the bigger person. i admit my flaws, i admit i'm wrong, and i get less than a glare in return.

it makes me angry when i care more about friends than they do for me. i feel very bitter. ( Read more... )

what is that ( Read more... )

well chris is really mad at me, and now i'm really mad at myself.

i just wish i would hear it 1st hand.

but then again i would probably be speechless n feel like we're never gonna be friends again. actual friends who trust eachother and get along A-OK.

ah well... i'm sorry. i don't know how much i can stress how sorry and how thankful i am. ( Read more... )

so. prom

it was nice. i got to spend it with good people. i can't dance in fronna boys. only girls. or alone in my bedroom. i was accused of "not acting soberly". i was basically interrogated in the bathroom and then told i was not allowed to leave the hall- or be in the bathroom. ironic that i didn't even touch alcohol- at all- that night let ( Read more... )

[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[x] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I don't like bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I’m depressed. [ i don't get depressed often]
[x] I open up to others easily -- sometimes too ( Read more... )

i'm pretty good right now ( Read more... )

spring break ( Read more... )

i think the only way to break me down is to be persistent.
tell me everything i don't want to hear
tell me everything i'm trying to block out
you know i would listen

you were persistent
i finally fell apart

today i unpacked ( Read more... )

spring break ( Read more... )