is it so bad?

[_memorylane]

i would like to come home to someone who i can wake up and they would be happy to see me. at least i think i want that. it's not anyones fault, of course, if they cannot be that way while waking up. aaah i'm retarded. anyway, i'm glad i spent the wee hours of the morning with who i spent them with, and i thank someone especially for enabling me to

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[medusamagoni]

misty i fully understand where you're coming from with this. when caesar and i broke up in january, i realized i had completely lost the sense of who i was inside. i was always very outspoken and knew exactly what i wanted in my life, but being with caesar made me way more reserved and somewhat weak i guess. i wasn't the marisa my family knew and loved the 22 years i've been living that's for sure. i know what it's like to be in a relationship solely due to the fact that you're comfortable with the other person and it's not right. you need to be alone, you need to discover who you are again and you can't do in the situation you're in. i love you girl, if you ever need anything...a shoulder to cry on, good listening ears, i'm here ok. :)