I found out my mom has been throwing away quite a bit of my things. Pissed me off when I found out. I now know what happened to my butterfly knife. Drives me crazy, fo shizzle. So tonight, I'm going to toss a shit load of things that belong to her. That bitch doesn't need to fuck with me. She lies to me constantly. I'm about to break loose on her ( Read more... )

I got me a cd. Nine Inch Nails. The Fragile. Yay. No? What? Fuck you buddy. I FUCKING HATE YOU! I fucking hate me. Need ativan.. ativan.. ativan.. There is something wrong with me. Something that flows through my blood. It makes me cry. It makes me shake. It makes me not able to sleep at night. It's been a concern of family members. A concern for ( Read more... )

God damn, fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck. Today is turning into a shit day. A really bad day. Fuck it. I want more. More than I could ever have. I'll never find it here.

I stand before you as a victim, as the system rots. I couldn't focus, so I staggered when I heard the shots. There are no labels and no rehabilitation here. You are surrounded by the very fucking thoughts you fear.

Today was a good but shitty day. Incredibly bored. I fell asleep for a good three and a half hours. Go me!

I masturbated at least ( Read more... )

I think about all the times I lied to myself. About all the times I looked back and wished I could still be there. Hanging out with my old friends. Doing all the dumb shit we use to do. Taking shits in cat boxes. Having twizzler fights. Shooting any random thing, moving or not, with a gun. Putting up road blocks at midnight to cause accidents. ( Read more... )

Wow, today is a good day. Somewhat actually quite good. I've gotten a lot off my chest. Spoke to Jackie about it for a little while. Then I spoke to Courtney for a while. Then I laid naked under the fan. Gently drifted away from reality. Into my nightmares. I WANT TO BE A PART OF SOMEONES NIGHTMARE! NO! I WANT TO BE THE NIGHTMARE!

Evening minuetto in a castle by the sea ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm thinking about all the times you crossed the line. Looking at me so blindly as if I were just that expendable. Now I just stare at the wall, the walls seem to wave. Sometimes even drip. The door is always locked. Unless permission is asked and I agree. I feel, great. Yeah, great.

Hey cunts. Blah blah blah blah blah. Hanging out with Kyle and Jackie. Kyle is playing with my penis. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmm. It feels so nice.

(billy left now its Zieck i have controll of his computer) now i must go get all this soda off me. GGman GG

Hail Zeon
Zieck

Hey, yeah. I'm not tired. But yeah, I need sleep. But I don't want sleep. Sleep is for pussys. Fucking stupid head. I tired. I want one bourbon, one scotch, one beer. I haven't seen my baby since I don't know when ( Read more... )