Why?

[_milkman]

Why can't I stop thinking about you?
Why am I so lost without you?
Why can't I stop crying over you?
Why does it hurt so much, without you?
Why can't I be happy for you?
Why do I want to die without you?
...
Because I love you!

Comments

[lornawblue]

*huge hugs hun*

[jude_88]

Why do I want to die without you?

please dont say that!

[_milkman]

One of the things I can walk out of our relationship, something which you've taught me to do, is talk about what I'm thinking/feeling. I don't know why I bother, seeing as how it's caused more problems than it's solved... not least of which was breaking us up! I also don't have anyone to talk to any more.. well, that's not strictly true.. lots of people have offered their ears but their not the same as you, I don't feel as comfortable talking to them, nor do I particularly want to open up to them. I don't let my guard down to many people, in fact you were the only current person with the keys to my wall

[jude_88]

By all means talk bout what your thinking/feeling, i just dont like to see that your saying you want to die!

ill leave you be, and sorry for thursday in advance.

talk to me when you're ready

[_milkman]

There's not a lot you can do about Thursday. Just be nice to me and dont be all over each other.

I'll be going through Leicester late morning/early afternoon on Saturday, depending how I feel after thursday that might be the best opportunity for us to talk. I doubt I'll be over your way for quite a while after then and I don't think text/lj talk is quite gonna work.

[_chipstick]

Hey, I know this is gonna be hard to believe but I know how you feel. Although I do have numerous perople who I could get with I sorta feel lost without Gareth. Everytime I think about something he seems to be there in my mind (well him or Jon) and pretty much everything I've done I've done with one of them so they are jst always there and I can't forget them.
It's hard to move on but you've gotta be strong. For me that aint hard, I have someone to guide me and I can just put on a front, you have to find your own way of doing it.
I'm not gonna say 'if you wanna talk i'm here' cos everyone has been saying that and you must have a million people to talk to! I know if you wanna call you'll call cos you want to not cos you feel obliged too!!!
Keep your chin up x

[amentionedkiss]

aw... muffin... *huggles*