So, I'm not a natural after all.

[_misanthr0py_]

Let me first start off by saying that because of rain/snow, it has limited my skating to... lets say, in TOTAL, about 15 days. I can never go skating two consecutive days due to bad whether

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hmmm

[mauldy]

definitely "to skate"

if you love it, who cares what anyone else says?
and so what if you never go pro? Honestly, as long as your true to yourself, and as long as you love to do it, whats wrong with making yourself happy? It may not be what your were meant to do, but you know what, I know I'll never be a famous artist. I still draw though, because i love it. I still take pictures, because i love to. Do what you love, because if you don't you will loose yourself. My best friend once said something that really makes sense:

Complacency is what giving up is folks. You'll get too tired to care anymore and you'll breathe your last anxious breath and the last little bit of: inocence; unfailing hope; honesty; child-like tendencies; and unrealistic dreams will burn out. And then...you'll be a grown up.

Don't loose that, don't loose your dreams, and don't loose yourself. Don't become another face in the crowd. Just be honest, be you, and fuck the world if they can't take it.

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[_misanthr0py_]

I'm still just another face in the crowd, with or without dreams. And sadly enough, I think that's always how it's going to be. But you're right. I still should skateboard, just because I love it. And without it, I'd probably be all blah-ish, and have no personality whatsoever.

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[_misanthr0py_]

And your friend... is really smart. I'm going to have to remember and quote what they said.

[xfuctupkidx]

Skate. I've gone through the same deal as you, only not with my sister but my mom always telling me that I shouldn't skate and that I should do something more "socially acceptable" or whatever. So I say you should skate, and if you keep the drive that you have right now, and the love to skate, then hell you'll probably be doing better 9's in five years than the master himself. :)

[_misanthr0py_]

Lmao. =) The thought of me even going down a half pipe is kind of like 'Woooooah.' But that is kind of a dream of mine. I want to be a vert skater. I know already that I hate street, and when I look at vert, it's like a fucking art or something. And I'm like yeah 'Don't worry, I'll be flying in the air pretty soon.'

And my sister isn't the only one who tries to put me down! My mom does it too. And my dad... everyone basically. But I'm going to stick with it. Even if I don't go pro.

Hopefully, you're still skating too. That way in a few years, we'll both be doing those bad-fucking-ass 900's.

[xfuctupkidx]

I hope to see ya sometime at some crazy demo or something taring it up!

[minako_darkmoon]

Seriously

[_misanthr0py_]

"And OF COURSE it would be good to know whether all your effort was worth it, but not knowing, and just trusting yourself and following your heart is half the battle."

I'm crying now! If that's half the battle, then I'm losing. -_- It's so hard for me to just trust myself and follow my heart, and I don't know why. I hate not knowing the future. I wish I could see. But I guess that's the only thing I can do. Trust myself, and follow my heart. And maybe that will lead me to where I'm supposed to go?

You don't know how hard it is for me to just let go and forget about whether I'll go pro. I'm honestly trying to. But every now and then I keep having that dream, where I'm sponsored by Zero and I'm doing demo's and just being able to say that I'm a pro skater for my career. But you're right. I have to just let go... exhale, and skate for fun. And I can't cry about the what if's. -_-

Damn it, Lisa! Why do you have to make so much sense? For now on, just kill people left and right for me!

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