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So today i stayed home. which is cool because i got to sleep in and stuff but sucks because i cant do anything tonight and ill have a shitload of makeup work.
i just feel like shit. i dont know if its because i have a cold, or because i feel so alone. it seems like everyone has a girlfriend, or a boy friend. everyone has someone who they love and that person loves them back. since ive moved here ive tried to have a relationship like that but it always seems to get fucked over. i dont know. im just gonna focus on paintball for now. thats the only thing i know wont go bad. unless its gets illegalized or something. school just seems gay. teachers are giving more and more homework and i have like no time to hangout after school.
oh yeah. i might move to texas. ive been hearing my dad talk to my older sister who lives in abilene about whos the best realtor in town. Or if the biggest banks in town are hiring. Ive also hear messages on the answering machine about companies looking over his job application and really liking it. i dont want to move. i like it here no matter what. kids here are just more laid back.