it's an overwhelming feeling.
i don't even know how to handle myself.
let me put it this way,
i can't stop pinching myself
i'm dreaming.
i'm sure of it.

everything happens for a reason.
i am so lucky
fortunate
excited
nervous
and any other combinations or synonyms of those said words.

i am so proud of myself, of everyone really.

here it is the moment of truth is suddenly upon us.
low and behold, im short of breath, and not suprised.

i'll sit in awe,
and calculate my next move.

expect the unexpected.
prepare for the worst,
but hope for the best.
whatever happens,
happens.
nothing more,
nothing less.

im so nervous.

"my knees are knocking so hard, i'd almost answer them."
-screetch powers

this is one for the record books.

am i really going through with this?
-well, how bad do you want it?
bad.
-then yes, you are.

my room is a disaster, and i've never slept better ( Read more... )

sometimes i have the best times doing nothing, and i like it that way.

AceZ06: i just wnat teh feeling
AceZ06: i want to play to the stupid flirty games
AceZ06: i wanna flirt on aim adn txt msgs
shut upx bianca: ugh! me too!
shut upx bianca: i want to go on lame dates
AceZ06: with sexual inuendos
shut upx bianca: haha
AceZ06: and be so nervous about talking
shut upx bianca: i want to hang out with my family and bring my boo ( Read more... )

so turns out the only day i have work this spring break is friday ( Read more... )

oh my gosh, one of the best saturday nights i have had in a long time.

we have fans, bitches, and a shirt off some guys back.
only two other people will understand the extent of greatness to which i am refering to.

i will never understand people. i will never understand change. and a combination of the two? just forget it. i hate facing the truth and realizing the inevitable. perhaps i read to deeply into simplistic gestures, or lack there of. the fact that i can't handle change makes me feel like the weakest creature on earth. and the fact the so many people ( Read more... )

hi my name is bianca, and i am zio's italian kitchen's employee of the month.