Yesterday was a Great day!!

I finally got to hang out with Oscar
I was a little nervous
But I had a really fun time!

It was sooo good to finally see him!
We made up...
And things are better between us!

I was bored...so i decided to update....

( like you knew me anyway... )

Every time I update on this thing I always delete it before anyone can even see my new post..so I decided this one I'll actually keep up.

Christmas is on its way...
and i feel like such a scrooge, im like the only person in the world that doesnt get all happy about Christmas.
I kinda just wish i could go out of town and just leave alot of pointless ( Read more... )

So this weekend consisted of letting a certain someone "naive" way of thinking bring me down....
sooo stupid of me..but for some reason, I let it happen....

This weekend I seemed to let anything bring me down..
STUPID love songs that i kept on repeat on my cd player....
stupid lyrics that still today are playing over and over in my head.......

So I think i have actually come to a few realizations in this past week that i really needed to come to.

Im not the happiest person in the world right now..but im ok with that..im a little sad at the fact that things i thought would last forever didnt work out as well as i had hoped for..
but i guess maybe it was just for the best that everything ( Read more... )

So this week of trying not to talk or even think about Oscar has been so hard..
Its only been 4 days since we've talked, but thats THE longest i have gone without talking to him in 2 years!

its so hard to go to sleep without hearing him or him telling me goodnight, or hearing an "I Love You" when the days over....

I've been going to sleep before 10: ( Read more... )

I CAN GRADUATE WITH MY CLASS!!!!!!!!

well..im going to try this journal thing again...

even though i know i wont be updating as much, and im really not sure if its even a good idea for me to have aone again...

life...well..life is..bittersweet...thats just one way to describe it.
Alot changed in the last 24 hours, and im still not sure if it was for the best or if it was just a bad ( Read more... )

a new journal for Natalie.. i realized i missed it, and it is realy the ONLY way i have to still keep in touch with certain people...