Merlin!
Gosh I think Im in love. I dont know what her name is, or what she looks like. All I know is that the more I think of her the more I think how she is so special. And the more I read this letter the more I think how shes the sweetest thing Ive ever encountered... Then I wonder (*gulp*) is it a she??
I mean, theres no indication of either, but the thought couldnt help come up in my head as some sick kind of worst case scenario. What if its a gay hawaiian guy with a flower wreath? What if it was that one who bumped into my on the way in... I mean, what are the possibilities?! Its endless! I know I shouldnt be thinking of this... but the thought remains. I wonder if, given that it was a guy, would I be able to accept him? Would gran be able to? Would I be able to look at him in the eye and say "You're so handsome, be with me forever" kind of things like I sorta did with Megan... Despite not finding them attractive when Im sober, If it was a guy, then I must have when I was drunk which brings me to question...am I gay?!