this is seriously not a drunk post.

[_ninetyseven_]

i fucking hate that my mother favors her children

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[desperate_true]

i can easily see how she could make you feel that way
just by the way she acts a lot of the time
and im not saying that you feeling this way is wrong
but you know in the long run she really loves you just as much

just think of it this way..
you're mom didnt get to really be there for you while you were growing up
she has a chance to make sure she's there for her other kids..
be glad for them.

[desperate_true]

your**

[_ninetyseven_]

i know she loves me i really do know that.
But at the same time it hurts when she does these things. and when i over hear her talking about my birth father, and how she wishes he was never a part of her life (which i do understand why but being the 'product' of that relationship it still hurts.)

what it really comes down to is i'm jealous. I'm 156% jealous.
I am happy shes finally happy but sometimes i think she honestly wishes she could get rid of everything pre zak and harry...which leaves me..and i know its not my fault, and i know my birth dad hurt her bad..but i think she really takes that out on me.

blah blah blah i'm rambling.

honestly, i just wish she'd really stop making fun of me EVEN IF SHES JUST KIDDING...because of my childhood i cannot take a fucking joke from her it kills me because i feel like she thinks i'm my father and thats all she sees.

hopefully this made some sense.

[sommessoxmente]

everything people's parents say is magnified 100x over what anyone else says. it was in a book about how to deal with parent related issues called "Toxic Parents"

[thencaseysays]

if you want, when we go to a party at your house, I can ignore her for you, and talk about how much other parents rock

[_ninetyseven_]

haha