Ok, so I'm getting ready to go home and I cant wait. But I was planning this thing, and now i cant do it because of all this other crap thats going on. I give up on trying to do anything nice for anyone else, because everytime i try...things go wrong. my head hurts and i'm sad. my day was going so well until i got a happy little message. damn.

I've lost my smile and i dont know why. I need someone to help me find it. ok, just to get this out of the way, things are great with me and joe. For some reason, i just can't smile. Things are going to be changing soon, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for all this change. It's not like I don't want things to change, but I'm just not sure if i'm ( Read more... )

I was an Oscar Meyer Weiner!!! No, not really, but thats ok. Today is a really great day. Things are finally coming together, and i am really happy. I have to say, i have the most amazing boyfriend EVER!!! joe, i love you more than i could ever possibly say ( Read more... )

OK, so yeah i'm really pissed off. I thought that things were going good, but apparently they're not. argh! i never knew that i had to be adjusted to. i didnt think that me coming home would mean that everyone would have to adjust soooooo much. they're all acting like they are gonna have to turn everything upside down! FUCK!!!!! this is just ( Read more... )

its only 9:45 and i'm so damn tired, i'm ready to fall asleep. i was laying down on my bed watching The Corpse Bride, and i almost fell asleep. i had to get up and walk around and fiddle with my computer. hooray for computers. tra la la. oh well, i cant think of anything else to write.

i was told i have to update, so my LJ doesnt cry anymore, cuz apparently it misses me, but i havent seen a card, or flowers or anything, man this breaking up thing is hard, but its like alcohol, ya just keep comin back to it. haha! anywho. things are getting better, the Maiden show was awesome. a lot of things have changed in the last few weeks ( Read more... )

I totally need a hug right now, i could definately use it. Things aren't going as well as I thought they would this year, I really hoped that things would get better this year. In some ways they are, but in others they're kind of getting worse. And the thing that sucks is, the thing thats getting worse is the thing that I didnt think would. It ( Read more... )

I get to go see IRON FREAKIN MAIDEN!!!! Who is jealous of me? I bet all of you are! haha! anywho, i cant wait to go home. bah. school sucks.

on the other hand, my scrap books are getting on their way! they look great!!!! hooray!!!

I decided something today, i decided that school is stupid, when i came to school its like i became cut off from the rest of the world, and i dont like that. I just want the year to be over, is that too much to ask? this stinks. bah. oh well. what are you gonna do, there is no point in moping around about it right? The thing that sucks is tho ( Read more... )

Ok so i've had a really bad day. And i really dont think that its going to get any better. i really hope that i will, but i doubt it. i hate money, its the fucking devil. i hate banks, i hate it all. it makes me really sad. i just want to go home, but i cant. but when i say i want to go home i mean that i want to go to joe's house, cuz if i ( Read more... )