The entry that I just tryed to post, got erased and fucked up somehow. but I'm leaving, Meagan is here. I'll fix this later, like when I get home. peace.

My night turmed out GREEEEAT! Jessie came over to visit me.. she made me an amazing star pillow, I la la la loooove it. but just her here, made me really happy. umm, yea.. It's definetly Christmas eve, and it's finally starting to hit me, how pumped am I!? Jessie and I just got back from our little trip to Edward street. she maaade my christmas ( Read more... )

It's Christmas Eve, and I'm not even sure if I'm even excited.. my whole family ruins it for me and the rest of us. I was supposed to go shopping today with Jessie, but once again, that didn't happen, I knew it wouldn't. so anyways, now my parents are mad at me because I didn't get my moms gift like I was supposed to. My mom told me I ruined ( Read more... )

It's been a few days since I have written in here. Shit's been kinda lame lately.. I've been really sick, and I still am. I'm hoping Randy goes home soon, I hope he gets to go home for the holidays.. and I miss him in school.. get better hun<3 but yea.. I didn't go to school on Monday, I was stuck throwing up all day. wasn't thrilled. I did go to ( Read more... )

Not really much to say.. I ended up talking to Curt last night for like 3 hours, and I fell asleep on the phone, but then woke up to him saying my name, so we let eachother go.. I fell asleep after that for about a half an hour, and Jeremy called, telling me he was comming over.. so I had to get up out of the reeeeally warm and comfortable bed.. ( Read more... )

Well, Last night Jamie and I met eachother downtown and walked to the high school to TRY to get in, to get my uniform for the game, because I needed Dee to fit it.. so we're standing outside the highschool for about 45 minutes, trying to get the janitors to let us in, buuut they were ignoring us.. Jamie had to pee soooo bad and it was fucking ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I've actually wrote something in here. I guess you could say I've been pretty depressed lately.. confused and shit.. but I don't know. Things are being really lame in my life right now and I hate it. I guess you could say that everything is slowly falling back into place..

Well, It's 10th period.. and Kristen and I are at ( Read more... )

No thoughts.. so much pain.. nothing to say.

I'm starting to not be able to handle or deal with this shit anymore.. what more do you want me to do? It's like the more I try, the farther away I become. you people expect a little to much out of me.. and I can't give that to you.. I'm sorry.

I'm never gunna be what you wanna see.
Always gotta be me and free.
Right or wrong.. here I go.

And I've ( Read more... )

Look.. I messed up, I know I did. but I still have a right to not want to be here. I still have a right to want to leave. I mean, yea.. some of you say you care and don't want me to leave but sometimes I find that very hard to beleive. yes, I read all the comments people left, and yes my life isn't as horrible as some people, but it's not as easy ( Read more... )