deftones/dir en grey/fall of troy was excellent. my body is still aching from my music inspired convulsions- i am now a dir en grey fan. also, i made an extraordinarily bold move on a gorgeous boy- i was dancing next to him, getting a great deal of his sweat on my left arm, for a good deal of the concert. i felt very attracted to him, which is ( Read more... )

i talked to melodie and moving in my stuff is ok, but half of tyler's stuff is there still (which i thought would be gone over a week ago) and until his stuff is out and the house has a little time to wobble back, adjust to something resembling normality, i must sleep elsewhere-which, this weekend, can't be frankie's house because they're going to ( Read more... )

ok, so i have been totally moved out of my parent's house since the afternoon of the twenty third, and staying at frankie's. it has been really wonderfully and shockingly easy- my mom only made weak, whining efforts to interfere. it is very entertaining to live with frankie, audra, and frankie's family... appleman and durell are over a lot of the ( Read more... )

on the fifth, i went over to frankie's house to celebrate her birthday, as well as kiki's and mine. very fun- i made her a card and we had delicious cake from la galette- frankie promises to take me there sometime- it was pink and white, with glazed strawberries.. possibly the best birthday cake i've ever had, that was not cheesecake or torte.. we ( Read more... )

My birthday is tomorrow, 05/06/07. I will be 17 years old, at 2:51 AM.

Should be a good year *grin*

i want: an individual who i'm attracted to the way i was to daniel, magnetically and lustfully, but who can love me in the way that christian does, throwing his whole self into it and extending it absolutely unconditionally, the emotion and trust, exposed, dangerously (or is it more dangerous to live a half-life of holding back? i think so)- but ( Read more... )

i love spring so much. and living in this body ( Read more... )

i feel much better. some powerful meditation helps. my hand twitches with my pulse still when i'm tense or my circulation is funny, but that is lessening too. no more headache ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to japanese class with hoshi and company for the first time. before everyone showed up, i walked about, read, sketched, etc. i got some ice cream and sat down at a table, and a nice asian man who looked to be around 25, who had been admiring the same sculpture as me earlier, asked if he could share the table with me. we talked ( Read more... )

i honestly don't want to find anyone else until i've moved out of my parent's house. i would like to have a casual relationship with a woman i can truly feel comfortable with, but i've never met one of those. at least not one who isn't straight. and, my memories of time with daniel actually just bring smiles to my face now, and i haven't been ( Read more... )