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HORROR STORY
How long does it take for wounds to close and scars to lighten? 9 years down the road and I think I start to remember it less. Tracing the faint lines on my thigh, your questions were inevitable and the little demons start to surface and latch on. Perhaps in the future, the past will not matter so much but for now, it wraps around my wrists too ( Read more... ) -
HUNGRY GHOSTS
It's not really magical but everything becomes bad after 12 and it's alluring. With you, nothing ever goes right and everything about us is wrong. Get even, get angry, get back and then get caught with all the leftover feelings that spill out from our mouths into the holes of our clavicles. Get caught. Bad. But get lost with all your truths because ( Read more... ) -
RUN
Every action has a consequence and an underlying meaning to it and I am more than aware of knowing what I'm saying when I don't say anything. My priorities don't look right sometimes and I admit that I do certain things out of spite. One thing for sure - I am aware of how I come across to you when I do, or don't do things.
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SIDE WALK
And so it is that certain night I recall the nights that I couldn't have possibly lived in because what is it that I miss when I've never had it to begin with? The fingers of wind go through my hair and the cold lights press against my cheek - it's almost a very pretty picture of a sham that I've painted for myself. And in the whispers that creep ( Read more... ) -
ALARM CALL
"How can you expect other people to love you if you don't love yourself?" It's a fallacy, it means nothing and those two things situations have no relation. Whatever the fuck I do to myself and whatever I feel about myself has no bearing on other people's feelings towards me. Plus, what is this fucking expectation shit we're talking about anyway? ( Read more... ) -
LUCKY STAR
Every day I am thankful for the things and opportunities that come my way but every dayI also want to kill myself.
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纠结
In the tangled mess of lies and truth that we aim to keep afloat in a relationship, I'm afraid that it's not what matters anymore. I keep asking myself why was it that my last serious relationship failed (Was I too young and he too old? Was it my wavering heart?) and maybe I could do better the next time round. But the truth is, I knew the answers ( Read more... ) -
ALIVE IN 85
It aches when the old cracks can be seen again. Was the white wash too thin or is it time and again that the wall needs a new coat of paint? I move backwards and read the things I've written and - did I really write that? How? It aches when I delude myself into thinking that the things I see are real. In between deciding the right place and time to ( Read more... ) -
PREPUB
It's a cruel world when I look at a picture of an 18 year old by the beach and decide that it should be my ideal body; that in my mid-twenties it's just so difficult to live.
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BRAIN DAMAGE
I'm not afraid to go to hell because I already am in hell inside my own halls.