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…but, which one am i buying?

i can’t pick.

so, help.


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so, needless to say, i've pretty much been in hell these past 2 days.
i feel so incredibly empty inside, already.
i have no desire to leave my house or do anything.
i'm supposed to go to jim & pete's grad parties on the 16th
so, to fulfill my promises, i'll make sure to put in an appearance at both,
but it's doubtful i'll be staying longer than an hour ( Read more... )

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he leaves for the summer.
i stay.
i leave for PSU.
he comes home.
i see him probably on average of a couple weeks out of that year.
he leaves for the summer again for army job training.
i come home.
i go back to psu.
he comes back home.
he leaves for OSU.

our lives don't coordinate for the next 2 years.
it's as good as over
against both of our wills.
and i just ( Read more... )

i can't stop listening to our songs.
i can't stop crying.
i can't breathe.

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tomorrow
justin has a meeting with his recruiter.
and he surprised me tonight
by telling me he's been thinking about it for a while
and he's going to ask if he can break his contract
and go to boot camp next summer instead.

i cried happy tears the whole car ride home.

i'll be so on edge tomorrow
until i know
if my lover
is staying.
<3.

i have a lot of pictures i need to post,
but i’ll do that later
and instead, I’ll write the rare photo-less update on my life.

-still looking for another job. E&P is being ridiculous with calling me back. every time they say they will, it never happens. so I’ve pretty much given up on there. i guess it’s time to start the job search all over again ( Read more... )

while most of you went to prom,
i had the best night ever.

instead of risking paying all the money for prom
and not enjoying ourselves
justin and i decided to get all dressed up
and go to the melting pot for dinner
and then to the overlook at mount washington
and enjoy each other's company
for far less money.

our waiter 'was into me' as justin put it
and ( Read more... )