i fucked up so bad i cannot honestly tell a soul the extent of the damage. it's one mistake to lie to other people, but to lie to yourself and believe it is worse. i know it's not my fault....but i also know if i wasn't such a coward that poor girl would not of been raped and yassir would of been in jail weeks ago. i don't want to go back to work ( Read more... )

who's gonna give a shit ( Read more... )

fuck therapy, i'm just going to do this myself..or that's what i keep telling myself.i've bought self help books and motivational tapes, i'm lost inside myself and dont remember the way out. i'll no longer be working that god awful telemarketing job, teresa tapp offered me a job at better body basics with my sister, the best part is i get off at ( Read more... )

i had to put my baby bunny down today, i missed my last exam, i'm not looking forward to my birthday anymore.ten years is no time at all.

i feel like i've been running and i'll never get to stop.....i have no destination, just go go go. it's all just so pointless...everything. i wish i knew where i was going....i wish i wasnt so blinded by my perception, i wish EVERYONE wasn't so blinded by their own fucking perception.....how could ANYONE see the nature of reality? fucking ( Read more... )

well my trip to miami started of really rocky, i mean quite frankly i thought i was going to die in a car accident before i even got to fort myers. our hotel room wasn't ready til 1;30, then we got lost in miami for 2 hours. finally got to the park to wait and hour in line to pick up our tickets, then had to wait in line to get in. tons of people ( Read more... )

so brandon bought this amon tobin album for me....it is beat of my soul!!!! i took cleo outside and brought it in my cd player...my mom had just cut the grass and it reminder me of a dance floor ( Read more... )

sometimes i forget my name. just the sound of the syllablesslipping off my tongue has no significance. i totally disconnect, whatever gives this body life drifts between space and time, this reality is loosing it's flavor. the hunger for new life is growing, i think even this girl will die like the last, just another portrait to place in my past. ( Read more... )

today in class, i was really bored, i couldn't help but notice everyone's electromagnetic field. it's pretty impossible to see aura colors in that lighting, but i could see the teacher's energy move with her as she traveled around the class to lecture. next class, same teacher, i begin to take notes about styles of leadership. as my eyes travel ( Read more... )

i live to fuck up...everyday in a brand new way