My 21st birthday. Monday, or I guess tomorrow at this point. I'm only going to have maybe 3 people come out with me because I have no friends left that will actually go out of their way to see me on my birthday. Not including those that can't due to the age thing. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's sure what it feels like as of late. It's more my ( Read more... )

I had to take a break from studying. I think my health has been affected from the stresses that I've had to endure over the last few months/ years/ lifetime. I was sick Saturday through yeserday and I'm feeling it again. This twitch in my eye decreased significantly since I sent in my applications, but it's returned a little bit and I'm guessing ( Read more... )

I just realized in this semi-buzzed state of mind that this will probably be the last year that I wish my birthday were earlier in the year.

Being around so many "little kids" Saturday night made me realize that, unfortunately, I was there once. It's hard to imagine life without driving myself places, or having my friends drive. I remember having to walk home on occasion when I couldn't get a ride, those horrible times walking down Old Country Rd. to my house that is only maybe a mile ( Read more... )

I seem to have a weekly freak out that either my mom or brother have to help me come down from. This is unfair to them, I know. I get this anxiety over anything/ everything and can't concentrate on anything else (in this particular case, my stat homework that's due in an hour). I want to sell my car and stop basically living for it. I would ( Read more... )

I like to think that I love change. And I think I do. I don't always know how to go about doing it though. I wish I never dyed my hair though, I really don't like it this color. I need to not touch it for a long time and just see what happens- even though I want to highlight the shit out of it. I'm getting closer and closer to picking up a few ( Read more... )

I broke down a little bit today. I realized that I owe $200 in two days, I'm currently short $60 in my account and I have to buy a textbook and a calculator by Thursday. The other books can wait. My mom said she would find a way to take care of a few things for me... which is hard to believe because she has less money than I do half the time. I ( Read more... )

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Still haven't gotten that new job. I have been sleeping so late lately it's terrible. I dread walking into work everyday. I hate that I can't just quit now and be free for a couple weeks. I am fucking broke as hell.

I want to go on a date.

Wishful thinking.

Every past semester I have had assignments pile up and I would always end up with an incomplete in at least one of my classes. I am really glad to say that I actaully kept up pretty good with everything and I am completely free and clear for the summer ( Read more... )