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I can't take another day without you, cuz baby I could never make it on my own, I've been waiting so long just to hold you, and to be back in your arms where I belong...
So yesterday I spent basically in agony wanting to know what Javi had to talk to me about. I finally got my answer after going to Taco Bell. We went and park in front of my house and he was like "Ok when I graduate, I'm not staying and getting my basics at the J.C. I want to get out of Hobbs as soon as possible and go to Cali." and he was just talking about how if maybe we broke up sooner than the end of the year, then it might not hurt as bad as if we did it at the end. I was like "Javi it's gonna hurt either way." and he was like "True, but if we wait till the end of the year then that will be a lot of months and we'll be really close." and I was like "Yeah, I don't know about you but I want to spend as much time with you as I can before you leave." and he was like "Sophie do you think you're gonna lose me if we break up? Because I'll still walk you, and talk to you and call you if its alright with you. Unless you can't handle that and I would understand." In my mind, I was like it won't be the same as holding your hand and being in your arms and kissing you. All in all, I basically just told him that I myself do not want to break up till the end of the year (Here he said "Youre tough.") and of course I ended up bawling and he held me and wiped away my tears. And he kissed me and got some snot on him lol. I don't care what anyone says it was so sweet. So basically we dropped that subject and he didnt really speak of it any more. I called him later and tried not to have any awkwardness. He was like "When I make a friendship, I don't just stop it." and that made me feel good cuz it made me feel like even if we break up we'll still be friends in college and everything.
I was so worried about it being awkward at school but it really wasn't. He was only there till 3rd hour cuz he had a soccer game so it was kinda sad. He called me tho later, and I'm waiting for him to call me back. Tomorrow night I might have to babysit so I don't know what I'll do. Jason and Meagan are really close now. Laura and Matt are alot closer than they were. He acts one way in school tho and one way on the weekends. Her birthday was a blast though. I found out how awesome a person Jason is. He's so crazy and I love it. He's really fun to hang out with and I'm so sad that his car Zimbabwe might get retired becuz of a recall. He was gonna give me Meagan and Laura a Zimbabwe tour this weekend but now he might not. :-( Well I gotta go study. Just thougth I'd update a little.