ahhh ok..im somewhat sane now..i talked to libby for the first time in a couple months and i feel better..it was a sign or somethin i swear..ahh i miss you lib! i love youuuuuuuu

ive been soo upset all day..i hate to say it but i think ive been around john so much and stuff that when he leaves i jus kinda fall apart..i really really miss him..its not jus another silly crush or somethin..hes a keeper and hes practically the only real friend i have up here and i really dont know what i wouldve done all year without him right ( Read more... )

yet another survey ( Read more... )

yesterday we got up and got ready and went to moa and joel and katie and patrick got wristbands and rode rides at camp snoopy all day and nathan and my dad went home right after we ate and thennn we shopped a tonnnn..i got a really cute white skirt from hollister and 3 shirts and then some other stuff..i got some really cute gold sequined shoes..i ( Read more... )

wednesday i went with john for behind the wheel and we went to burnsville and then we got home and my dad took us to the edina aquatic center and we met up with nathan and joel and katie and patrick and we were there until 6:30ish i think then we jus came home and then thursday we packed a bag and stuff and i went with john again for behind the ( Read more... )

hmm friday..i duno what we did all day but i think we went to lake harriet that night..we had a "picnic"..it was pretty fun then saturday we went to the shakopee pool and it is huuuuuge..it has a sand bottom like a lake though and i dont like that..its freaky but they have one big water slide and a couple more little ones..it was pretty fun..they ( Read more... )

yaaaay..i really have an obsession with these things ( Read more... )

wednesday we left around 9:30 for the funeral and manjari came with us and then we went and got my mom and finally found the chapel and the casket was open so my mom made us sit towards the back cause manjari didnt wanna see him and then 5 of his friends spoke and it was reeally nice and then carrie spoke and it was nice too..she said somethin ( Read more... )

the obituary ( Read more... )

saturday we went to get john..we met them half way again and at like 1:30 in the mornin i heard john cryin..i didnt know what to do..i just went in there and sat with him and held him..i feel so awful..i duno..then sunday we went shoppin again cause i had to get somethin for the visitation..i got this black sundress type thing from gap and a skirt ( Read more... )