loneliness is the human condition . dont let anyone fill that space.

so i've deciced that i think life is better lived alone. (i mean we ultimately are alone, but life likes to lie...a lot. it's like death, should accept its reality now as to avoid shock when we are old?) i dont know. i am not cut for school right now. i cant do this small talk, how was your summer crap. brown is too not real sometimes. but i guess ( Read more... )

So I have seen Little Miss Sunshine 4 times now. I am absolutely in love with it. It is so hilarious and smart. Losers win. I love the family's free-spirit, sense of adventure, spontaneity, and perspective of life, "yes ( Read more... )

I am refreshed ( Read more... )

if only i didnt "have one foot on the ground."

if one more person asks me if i am a lesbian... ! when has just wanting love instead of any old guy, served as the definition of homosexuality. and plus i just think angelina and shannon are beautiful... LOL.

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on another note,

why did he tell me that God?

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august 16. the day i have been waiting for probably before birth.

I never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
all these voices
I hear in my mind
all these words
I hear in mind
all this music
and it breaks my heart...

it's amazing how one can go from happiness one day to loneliness the next. reminds me of something. yesterday's entry was going to about the lessons I learned, about everything becoming frivolous when you hear of someone's death or when you really start to think about the grand scope of life. which is true. when one dies, one realizes he or she is ( Read more... )

My week or more away from home was well spent. Stayed with onyeka sat-thurs and that was fun. i really like my onyeka. i got a fake id, but its pretty shitty not to mention the life threatening situation it took to get it! more detail later. then i visited rachael in the hamptons, and i am in love with her. we smoked her mom's stash! i loved the ( Read more... )

work definitely consumes the soul. a french philospher, whose name escapes me, once said, "ne jamais travailler (never work)." I think that's true. The same of what I think about materialism & a structured life. what is also known as "bad faith", or the flight from existential responsibility. You lose sight of who you are and the simple beauties ( Read more... )