OKAY THIS IS A LONG TIME COMING ( Read more... )

i like the word manhattan because it sounds like something foreign and mystical. i mean, i know it basically means "land of many hills" but it really sounds like something fantastic.

i got nothing
but all that i need

i lack
ambition
any desire to assimilate into normal society
direction
want of direction
some thing that other people have that makes them go out & get jobs & be a contributing member of society

taking a class was stupid. but how else would i get to have such a convenient location? but really i want to go have summer and i'm stuck doing homework

i like the city, i really do. i like that i can get any kind of food i want at any time i want. i like that the shopping is AMAZING (hello, $10 dress that i love?). i like watching all the people because there are SO MANY. i've even come to enjoy my subway rides (more staring at people, duh). but but but... city life is not for me. all i do is ( Read more... )

troubling to inherit lonliness

there is no more room for me at home. i mean physically. my stuff doesn't fit anywhere, and where it used to fit my parents have put new stuff. i'm in the way of my dad's food habits and my mom's work. my music is always too loud and no, kaitlin, you can't watch a move right now, can't you see i'm writing a proposal? and, kaitlin, what is this ( Read more... )

i know why battered women never leave. they think, this is all i have to look forward to. more of this, why go through all the trouble of escaping when i'm going to end up right back here in a different way? at least this man knows how i sleep, how i like my coffee, what time i wake up, what i like to do. better abuse here, a place i know, than ( Read more... )

DREAMI arrive home (home is a large farmhouse type in the woods) with my brother (I don't have a brother) and father. We settle in but realize that there is a blizzard outside and there's no way to leave. We have no food stored. There are three cats. We get the plague. Bodies wrapped in sheets begin to build up in the storage room (I don't ( Read more... )