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I started my junior year of high school in a shaky relationship I was trying to get out of. So when I met a senior in my journalism class that had all the same interests as I did, it was easy to let the other guy go. We didn't date until 2 weeks after we started hanging out, so when we did things just felt so right. Then I fell in love, but he started a band. I tried to be very supportive (even though it meant less time with him) but he kept telling me I was bringing him down. We took "breaks" a few times, but couldn't stand to be apart.
Then one day, two years later after my senior year (& a day before my birthday) I made the mistake of saying, "tell me the truth about everything" (to see if we could fix some minor problems) & that's when he broke up with me. He said the most bullshit thing I've come to realize: "We should break up & see other people to find out what kind of relationship we have." At first I thought, excellent! There's no one he could date! but soon the grouper girls started coming around & I found out he was making out with every one of them. After three months I thought about what he had said & understood that he took the pussy way out. He said what he did to make him look like less of an asshole...but it didn't work.
It's only been 7 months, but I find no matter how pissed off I get with his actions (he's now doing things that used to make him mad...boy-ish stuff like making out with random girls he doesn't know) I am still completely in love with him. Last month I told him so, but he didn't do or say anything. I would have appreciated at least, "I'm sorry, I don't feel that way. Please get over it," but he remains silent as if to try & give me some sort of hope & string me along! He's had a girlfriend now for 5 months & up until last month (when I told him I am IN LOVE with him) he would come over late at night & well...yeah...
But a few weeks ago I wrote about it in my journal & how it pissed me off that he has such disrespect for anyone's feelings & his girlfriend read it. Now all of my friends are pissed off at me for what WE did & I am being blamed for everything.
I have a boyfriend now & he's really great. I am sooo happy when I'm with him. I just don't know how I can shake this feeling! After the incident with all my friends & his girlfriend, I sent him a letter saying I never want to talk to/hear from/think about him ever again because thinking about him & being his friend (which was what he wanted...to be friends) only hurts me, because that's not really what I want.
It hasn't worked. I still think about him & make wishes every night. It isn't fair...& I've never heard of anything to pathetic in my life. He isn't that special...but then again, he is.
Then one day, two years later after my senior year (& a day before my birthday) I made the mistake of saying, "tell me the truth about everything" (to see if we could fix some minor problems) & that's when he broke up with me. He said the most bullshit thing I've come to realize: "We should break up & see other people to find out what kind of relationship we have." At first I thought, excellent! There's no one he could date! but soon the grouper girls started coming around & I found out he was making out with every one of them. After three months I thought about what he had said & understood that he took the pussy way out. He said what he did to make him look like less of an asshole...but it didn't work.
It's only been 7 months, but I find no matter how pissed off I get with his actions (he's now doing things that used to make him mad...boy-ish stuff like making out with random girls he doesn't know) I am still completely in love with him. Last month I told him so, but he didn't do or say anything. I would have appreciated at least, "I'm sorry, I don't feel that way. Please get over it," but he remains silent as if to try & give me some sort of hope & string me along! He's had a girlfriend now for 5 months & up until last month (when I told him I am IN LOVE with him) he would come over late at night & well...yeah...
But a few weeks ago I wrote about it in my journal & how it pissed me off that he has such disrespect for anyone's feelings & his girlfriend read it. Now all of my friends are pissed off at me for what WE did & I am being blamed for everything.
I have a boyfriend now & he's really great. I am sooo happy when I'm with him. I just don't know how I can shake this feeling! After the incident with all my friends & his girlfriend, I sent him a letter saying I never want to talk to/hear from/think about him ever again because thinking about him & being his friend (which was what he wanted...to be friends) only hurts me, because that's not really what I want.
It hasn't worked. I still think about him & make wishes every night. It isn't fair...& I've never heard of anything to pathetic in my life. He isn't that special...but then again, he is.